The economy is effecting everyone in all walks of life. No one is immune. Even if you think you are not affected, you are because if you are buying groceries, gas, or paying bills, you are affected. People are losing homes, cars, and their sanity because of the economy. This week I have felt like I'm walking around in a bottle with no air and no opening to come out from under the weight of the economy.
My husband is a general contractor and we are going on a month with no new jobs, no phone calls to amount to anything and estimates that no one can make a decision on. I work part-time at our church as custodian. I have been job searching for the last two to three weeks, applying for job after job after job. My husband has been a general contractor for about 20 years and so being an "employee" is not a word that has been in my husband's vocabulary in a long time, but that is going to have to change.
Life sometimes hands you circumstances and it seems that no matter how hard you try to work or fix the issue, there is no answer. That is the way our life is at this moment. I'm not sure what the future holds for us at this moment. I'm not even sure if we will have a place to live or a car to drive in another week. I do know this and that is God will see us through this and more.
We have not given up on looking for jobs. I think I may even have one, but by the time I receive a paycheck this are going to be pass the serious and arriving at the edge of "where do we go". I know that probably makes no sense, but stress levels in our house are as high as the Mississippi river in some areas along it's banks right now. I've had several anxiety attacks in the last two weeks, bad enough that I thought I was having a heart attack. Pain so severe that my only thought was I won't see my husband's face before I die and I don't know if I said I love you or not today.
I need someone to take the cap off of this bottle and let in a breath of fresh air. We are doing the best we can, and we are praying daily for God's intervention. I guess the reason I'm writing this, is to say to others who are facing the effects of the economy, don't give up. Have faith and take it all to God. I know He is the only way we are going to survive this. God Bless!
Love L
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Saturday, May 21, 2011
Saturday, March 19, 2011
A Personal Mission Statement
Well I just finished up my second full week of school and I love it! I'm thinking seriously about going full time or at least 3/4 time after this semester. One of my classes for the first 7.5 weeks is called FYE or First Year Experience. It is a great class and the lectures are awesome. One of the topics this week was writing a personal mission statement. There were two videos that we could watch. One was just a random one of young girl writing her personal statement. The other was the scene from Jerry Maquire where he writes a 25 page personal mission statement. After reading the text and watching one of the videos, and i didn't watch Tom Cruise, I started thinking about my personal mission statement.
Writing a personal mission statement is actually a daily tool to be used to keep you focused and on tract to obtain your short and long term goals, as well as keeping what is important in your life, and knowing who and what you want to be. Using past life experiences and what you see yourself doing in the future are part of writing a mission statement. So after all week long thinking about what was important, the reason I was doing what I was doing, and who I want to be and where I want to be in the next 1 to 4 years, I wrote a first draft of my personal mission statement. It is in no way finished or close to where I want it to be, but it did get some of the preliminary things on paper.
I have been a dreamer all my life, and I guess that is why I like to write. Writing and dreaming gives me the opportunity to be someone I'm not. Some of my goals have changed over the years but one thing that has never changed is my goal to be a published writer. Some of you might wonder than why I'm not going after a degree in journalism or media. Well writers don't really make that much money to start out with, especially if you don't make it on the best sellers list. I have to be practical and I can still be a dreamer. The practical side of me knows that I need to work for us to be able to survive, unless of course we win the lottery. The dreamer side of me can still strive to be that published writer.
As a person, I want to be someone that people trust, that is honest, that cares and that wants to help people, but also have family and friends in their life. My husband and my child are the utmost of importance to me. God is first in my life, but they come in second, then family, then work. These are all things we need to consider. I guess the bottom line here is this, writing this personal mission statement will help me to define short term, long term goals, and the map on how to achieve those.
What are your long term and short term goals? ARe you only living day to day with no thought of where you want to be in one, two or four years from now? I'm 48 years old about to be 49, this has become majorily important to me, to achieve, accomplish and complete this before I'm too old to reap the benefits.
Have a blessed day!
Writing a personal mission statement is actually a daily tool to be used to keep you focused and on tract to obtain your short and long term goals, as well as keeping what is important in your life, and knowing who and what you want to be. Using past life experiences and what you see yourself doing in the future are part of writing a mission statement. So after all week long thinking about what was important, the reason I was doing what I was doing, and who I want to be and where I want to be in the next 1 to 4 years, I wrote a first draft of my personal mission statement. It is in no way finished or close to where I want it to be, but it did get some of the preliminary things on paper.
I have been a dreamer all my life, and I guess that is why I like to write. Writing and dreaming gives me the opportunity to be someone I'm not. Some of my goals have changed over the years but one thing that has never changed is my goal to be a published writer. Some of you might wonder than why I'm not going after a degree in journalism or media. Well writers don't really make that much money to start out with, especially if you don't make it on the best sellers list. I have to be practical and I can still be a dreamer. The practical side of me knows that I need to work for us to be able to survive, unless of course we win the lottery. The dreamer side of me can still strive to be that published writer.
As a person, I want to be someone that people trust, that is honest, that cares and that wants to help people, but also have family and friends in their life. My husband and my child are the utmost of importance to me. God is first in my life, but they come in second, then family, then work. These are all things we need to consider. I guess the bottom line here is this, writing this personal mission statement will help me to define short term, long term goals, and the map on how to achieve those.
What are your long term and short term goals? ARe you only living day to day with no thought of where you want to be in one, two or four years from now? I'm 48 years old about to be 49, this has become majorily important to me, to achieve, accomplish and complete this before I'm too old to reap the benefits.
Have a blessed day!
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Progress in Life
School started on March 2nd, and to say I was a little fearful would be right on the money. However, I am on the third week of school and am much calmer and not fearful any longer. I'm ahead in my math course by two chapters and plan to be finished with the next two by the end of this week. Now when things are going good, the devil likes to make life interesting. So last Thursday after suffering with a toothache for three days I went to the dentist. They cut the tooth out on Monday and I was not able to do any school work. I became very anxious, but I had planned ahead and had already printed off my lectures and assignments for the week. So on Tuesday morning and off and on all day, I worked on school work for my FYE class. First Year Experience in case you wondered. So because of the tooth extraction, I missed work on Tuesday as well and was a little worried, but God always provides and the devil will run when you evoke Jesus name. It turns out that I will be working everyday next week because Chio, the regular custodian, has had a death in the family. My prayers go out to him and his family.
I guess what I'm getting at is that it is turning out to be a positive experience, and I think I'm going to try to bump up my classes. I know that this is the right thing to do because God is making it happen one step at a time. So if you are thinking about going back to school and how you are going to manage, God will provide the way and make sure you have what you need. Your faith in God will see you through. May you all have a blessed Day!
Love,
L
I guess what I'm getting at is that it is turning out to be a positive experience, and I think I'm going to try to bump up my classes. I know that this is the right thing to do because God is making it happen one step at a time. So if you are thinking about going back to school and how you are going to manage, God will provide the way and make sure you have what you need. Your faith in God will see you through. May you all have a blessed Day!
Love,
L
Sunday, January 23, 2011
A Destructive Streak
If you read my blogs, I shared about my eating disorder and some of my trigger foods. Because of the gastric bypass sugar is a no no, carbonation is suppose to be a no no, drinking through a straw is also one of those things I'm not suppose to do. Also since the surgery, I have developed a few things that I am allergic to like chocolate, milk, ranch dressing in large quantities, queso, and I have problems with digesting lettuce.
So there are times when I know what I am eating is going to make me sick. So why do I do it? I usually reason it out with this statement, "I haven't had it in a long time and I need it." It is true to a point. Sometimes I just want the taste again. I love salads. I like to eat cereal. Yesterday I made brownies and I've eaten them twice.
I know emotions effect this a lot, so I try to figure out what exactly it is that drives me to do this. I'm not lonely. I have a wonderful marriage. We have financial difficulties, but then who doesn't these days. I think a big problem I have right now is trying to figure out what, where and when. Finding a job is stressing the situation as well. I want to go back to school, but they are requiring pre-algebra and I'm sure it is necessary, but I would like to start working towards my degree as well. Maybe teaching is not the degree I need to go after? I just not sure. So I think really that is the issue. I want to use the things I love to make a living, but then I think about that in the long run and wonder how long will the world need an animal trainer or dog trainer, and does any one still read books, fiction.?
I know that I need to start journaling again. I haven't in almost two months at least not on a consistent basis and maybe that will help me. I talk to God constantly and know that He is there providing for me and my needs.
Have a God Filled Day!
Love, L
So there are times when I know what I am eating is going to make me sick. So why do I do it? I usually reason it out with this statement, "I haven't had it in a long time and I need it." It is true to a point. Sometimes I just want the taste again. I love salads. I like to eat cereal. Yesterday I made brownies and I've eaten them twice.
I know emotions effect this a lot, so I try to figure out what exactly it is that drives me to do this. I'm not lonely. I have a wonderful marriage. We have financial difficulties, but then who doesn't these days. I think a big problem I have right now is trying to figure out what, where and when. Finding a job is stressing the situation as well. I want to go back to school, but they are requiring pre-algebra and I'm sure it is necessary, but I would like to start working towards my degree as well. Maybe teaching is not the degree I need to go after? I just not sure. So I think really that is the issue. I want to use the things I love to make a living, but then I think about that in the long run and wonder how long will the world need an animal trainer or dog trainer, and does any one still read books, fiction.?
I know that I need to start journaling again. I haven't in almost two months at least not on a consistent basis and maybe that will help me. I talk to God constantly and know that He is there providing for me and my needs.
Have a God Filled Day!
Love, L
Thursday, January 6, 2011
So Many Thoughts, Not Enough Space or Time
Okay so I could sleep late this morning and I woke up before four am. I finally got up at five something and pushed the button on the coffee pot. Why? Who knows why I woke up so early, but I dreamed a lot last night. Some of my dream had to do with renewing our vows, but the hymn Tenderly and Softly ( I think that is correct) kept running through my mind. Of course I am always thinking about how I can increase my income from writing, and I'm not talking about writing content. I can do that and I'm okay with that, but I have an extremely hard time writing about things I have no interest in or care about. So I know that just writing content is never going to be enough income. I love writing stories, books, poems (although I'm not as good at poems) and just little articles or pages dealing with life. I have writing posted on the website called triond and you make money off of it for people viewing or reading or whatever you want to call it. I've received a notice today that I made a whole .51 cents on the site this last month. Okay I know you are laughing, but here's the thing, I've not posted anything new on that site probably in months. So to make money when I haven't added anything new, means something to me. I also have articles and stories on http://www.helium.com/ and I have two or three dollars accumulated on that site as well, but you can't get paid from that one unless you have 25.00 or more.
On Monday of this week, I made a list of things that I wanted to work on this week, and I kind of starting working towards my goal of losing 35 pounds. By the way, I've lost 4 pounds since the 27th of December, and I'm not really trying, just increasing protein, water intake and the amount I eat, and how often I eat. Anyway, the list I compiled looked like this:
Triond
Helium
Blogs
Budget - completed, but needs to be changed a little
Math
Caity's Blanket
journal
devotional
Food log
telephone service - completed
vacuum cleaner belts - borrowed my niece's instead
Grant gopher
Vince's stuff - I've tried and I don't think I can accomplish this one.
Things I've done that weren't on that list are as follows:
made dog treats
cleaned the house
did laundry
exercised
new cell phones activated
Today is Thursday and the chances that I will get anything else done on the original list is very slim. I did start a journal entry this morning and I did make a list of items we still need to pay by the end of January, and that one is in God's hands. There is a recovery meeting tonight and I'm going to try to go, but... we will just leave it at that. (Ugh I need to take something out of the freezer for dinner)
I know that God never leaves us and we just have to trust in Him completely. That was my one and only resolution for the year, To Trust In God and Step out in Faith. So here it is God. I know you can sort through it and show me where and how, when, and why, and what.
May you all have a God Filled and Blessed Day!
On Monday of this week, I made a list of things that I wanted to work on this week, and I kind of starting working towards my goal of losing 35 pounds. By the way, I've lost 4 pounds since the 27th of December, and I'm not really trying, just increasing protein, water intake and the amount I eat, and how often I eat. Anyway, the list I compiled looked like this:
Triond
Helium
Blogs
Budget - completed, but needs to be changed a little
Math
Caity's Blanket
journal
devotional
Food log
telephone service - completed
vacuum cleaner belts - borrowed my niece's instead
Grant gopher
Vince's stuff - I've tried and I don't think I can accomplish this one.
Things I've done that weren't on that list are as follows:
made dog treats
cleaned the house
did laundry
exercised
new cell phones activated
Today is Thursday and the chances that I will get anything else done on the original list is very slim. I did start a journal entry this morning and I did make a list of items we still need to pay by the end of January, and that one is in God's hands. There is a recovery meeting tonight and I'm going to try to go, but... we will just leave it at that. (Ugh I need to take something out of the freezer for dinner)
I know that God never leaves us and we just have to trust in Him completely. That was my one and only resolution for the year, To Trust In God and Step out in Faith. So here it is God. I know you can sort through it and show me where and how, when, and why, and what.
May you all have a God Filled and Blessed Day!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
A Driving Need
I am looking forward to the things that are in store for us next year. I'm looking forward to a house in a new town, making new friends, and just living our life together. I'm looking forward to having grandchildren. I'm looking forward to having beagles again. However, with everything I'm looking forward to I have a driving need to complete unfinished things and get rid of it before we move.
What things you might ask? Well I have at least 5 story lines at different levels that I want to finish. I have three books, a short story, and a collection of thoughts that I would like to see get typed and finished and hopefully published. I have several craft things that I would like to get finished and put away and in some cases give away to friends.
I am also taking intro to algebra which I would like to get finished in January and I want to start pre-calculus and get it finished in no more than three months. If I am able to get that accomplished, then I can enroll in school and start getting my teaching degree.
It sounds like a lot, but I do know that I can get this accomplished. I just have to stay focused and rely on God to give me the energy and strength to get this all done. I like having things completed and put away. I like it when we are able to close a chapter, and start a new one and that is what I feel like we are doing. Closing the old chapter. Starting the new chapter. I know it will be difficult for us, but those that are close to us are already talking about coming to visit. We will have room for a guest or two in the new house. Everyone will be welcome that wants to come visit. We will still make the trips for family reunions and Christmas Day with his family. The rest of the year will be in God's hands and so will our lives.
God Bless you all! Love, L
What things you might ask? Well I have at least 5 story lines at different levels that I want to finish. I have three books, a short story, and a collection of thoughts that I would like to see get typed and finished and hopefully published. I have several craft things that I would like to get finished and put away and in some cases give away to friends.
I am also taking intro to algebra which I would like to get finished in January and I want to start pre-calculus and get it finished in no more than three months. If I am able to get that accomplished, then I can enroll in school and start getting my teaching degree.
It sounds like a lot, but I do know that I can get this accomplished. I just have to stay focused and rely on God to give me the energy and strength to get this all done. I like having things completed and put away. I like it when we are able to close a chapter, and start a new one and that is what I feel like we are doing. Closing the old chapter. Starting the new chapter. I know it will be difficult for us, but those that are close to us are already talking about coming to visit. We will have room for a guest or two in the new house. Everyone will be welcome that wants to come visit. We will still make the trips for family reunions and Christmas Day with his family. The rest of the year will be in God's hands and so will our lives.
God Bless you all! Love, L
Saturday, December 11, 2010
A Couple of Thoughts I wanted to Share
First Thought
My Mom was down here this last week and I got to visit and have coffee with her. I really miss that! Hopefully in the next year I will be where I can do that on a regular basis. My Mom, Julia or Jude, as she has been known most of her life, stayed with my daughter Caity. That is my daughter's nickname. Her full name is Lauren Brianna Caitlyn Shipley Woods. She will get upset when she reads this because if i call her Caitlyn, she will tell me that is not her name, but it is because that is what I had put on her birth certificate.
Okay so I went off on a tangent, but I'm back. Anyway, we are going to Denton on Christmas Eve to be with my family. We drew names this year between the adults except for my mom. That way, we buy for one person, plus our kids, and then of course my mom. I wasn't sure I like the idea at first, but it works good and thank God because we cannot afford to buy gifts for everyone nor do I have time to make gifts for everyone, although I am trying, and I don't have to feel guilty for not being able to get family gifts.
I'm have been married for almost five years and I'm not sure what the Christmas present program is at my in laws. We have been trying to buy for my Mother in law and Step Father in law, and then we were buying for his siblings, and his kids. That was not possible last year, nor will it be this year. Parents are bought for no matter what because without them, there would be no us. So I am trying to decide what to get our parents. I have a few thought, but have not fully decided. I still have a couple of weeks, right????
Second Thought
My favorite things in life are animals, writing, and teaching. My goal for this coming year is to do all of that and I think it is definitely foreseeable. My sister, Ann or Julia, or I use to call her Sissy, but she made me stop after I started to school, is about to see her dream come true. You can read about it at http://www.rememberwhenranch.com/. She has a place for Norman and I if we want it. I do without a doubt. We will have a house of our own, and work if we want it. I know this is a good step for us. We will have to move to Gunter, Texas, but I will be close to my Mom, and a lot closer to my daughter and son in law who are moving to Keller or that general area. Although my husband has said he will move, I feel like he is holding back. We love each other and I just want us to be happy, not stressed over money or work. He can work on the ranch there or he can continue to do siding if he wants. But it would be a place where we don't have to worry about paying rent, or utilities or buying groceries or having gas money. I have been praying for God to show us the direction we need to go, and I think this is it. Now I need to pray that He will show my husband as well. God Bless you all
My Mom was down here this last week and I got to visit and have coffee with her. I really miss that! Hopefully in the next year I will be where I can do that on a regular basis. My Mom, Julia or Jude, as she has been known most of her life, stayed with my daughter Caity. That is my daughter's nickname. Her full name is Lauren Brianna Caitlyn Shipley Woods. She will get upset when she reads this because if i call her Caitlyn, she will tell me that is not her name, but it is because that is what I had put on her birth certificate.
Okay so I went off on a tangent, but I'm back. Anyway, we are going to Denton on Christmas Eve to be with my family. We drew names this year between the adults except for my mom. That way, we buy for one person, plus our kids, and then of course my mom. I wasn't sure I like the idea at first, but it works good and thank God because we cannot afford to buy gifts for everyone nor do I have time to make gifts for everyone, although I am trying, and I don't have to feel guilty for not being able to get family gifts.
I'm have been married for almost five years and I'm not sure what the Christmas present program is at my in laws. We have been trying to buy for my Mother in law and Step Father in law, and then we were buying for his siblings, and his kids. That was not possible last year, nor will it be this year. Parents are bought for no matter what because without them, there would be no us. So I am trying to decide what to get our parents. I have a few thought, but have not fully decided. I still have a couple of weeks, right????
Second Thought
My favorite things in life are animals, writing, and teaching. My goal for this coming year is to do all of that and I think it is definitely foreseeable. My sister, Ann or Julia, or I use to call her Sissy, but she made me stop after I started to school, is about to see her dream come true. You can read about it at http://www.rememberwhenranch.com/. She has a place for Norman and I if we want it. I do without a doubt. We will have a house of our own, and work if we want it. I know this is a good step for us. We will have to move to Gunter, Texas, but I will be close to my Mom, and a lot closer to my daughter and son in law who are moving to Keller or that general area. Although my husband has said he will move, I feel like he is holding back. We love each other and I just want us to be happy, not stressed over money or work. He can work on the ranch there or he can continue to do siding if he wants. But it would be a place where we don't have to worry about paying rent, or utilities or buying groceries or having gas money. I have been praying for God to show us the direction we need to go, and I think this is it. Now I need to pray that He will show my husband as well. God Bless you all
Monday, December 6, 2010
What A Good Weekend!!!
Okay so when I came home from work on Friday I was extremely tired! It seems I constantly run just trying to get things made, sold, written and cleaned just to make a few dollars. I didn't write any on Friday, mostly because I was tired, but also because it is hard to write when I can't concentrate, and my concentration on Friday was definitely gone.
As we prepared to go to bed on Friday night, I looked at my husband and said, "I need you to be totally honest with me." He looked at me and I asked, "Do you want to move or not?" He said, "Yes that is okay, we can move up that direction." Not his exact words, but close. I felt much better as we went to bed.
Saturday as we sat at the computers, he was reading his newspapers, while I answered emails, and caught up the check book, went through bills and then I decided to check out real estate in the general areas surrounding Keller. My greatest fear is that it is too populated and not enough open spaces that I will like it, but I quickly saw that there are plenty of areas around that are out in the open and has some land with some of the houses. I don't want to live so close to someone that I can open my door, spit and hit the neighbor's house. That is not for me, or my husband.
So a realtor contacted me through Face Book and supplied his website, and the list of cities that he covers. I did a search using his website and found a few places of interest. However, I used realtor.com and found lots more in some areas around Keller. We looked in Rhome, Azle, Haslet, Newark, Ponder, Aubrey(half between Keller and Denton), Boyd, and a few others. We found several things that really interested us.
So what is our next step? Well I am continuing to look for a job in that general area. I'm going to widen my search, and my interests on Monster.com, but I know all will be okay. I have been praying for God to give us direction, and I know He is talking to my heart. Am I afraid? Yes, but not of moving or starting over. My greatest fear is that God will call me to do something, and my husband is not going to be ready. However, even in that, I know that God will prepare us both for whatever He has in store for us.
Church was awesome yesterday. My husband is in the Christmas program and he had choir practice yesterday afternoon. While he was gone, the dogs and I listened to the sound track of Elf, and I made 68 dog treats, Honey and Oats. The dogs were very ready for them last night.
Have a God filled and blessed day!
Love, L
As we prepared to go to bed on Friday night, I looked at my husband and said, "I need you to be totally honest with me." He looked at me and I asked, "Do you want to move or not?" He said, "Yes that is okay, we can move up that direction." Not his exact words, but close. I felt much better as we went to bed.
Saturday as we sat at the computers, he was reading his newspapers, while I answered emails, and caught up the check book, went through bills and then I decided to check out real estate in the general areas surrounding Keller. My greatest fear is that it is too populated and not enough open spaces that I will like it, but I quickly saw that there are plenty of areas around that are out in the open and has some land with some of the houses. I don't want to live so close to someone that I can open my door, spit and hit the neighbor's house. That is not for me, or my husband.
So a realtor contacted me through Face Book and supplied his website, and the list of cities that he covers. I did a search using his website and found a few places of interest. However, I used realtor.com and found lots more in some areas around Keller. We looked in Rhome, Azle, Haslet, Newark, Ponder, Aubrey(half between Keller and Denton), Boyd, and a few others. We found several things that really interested us.
So what is our next step? Well I am continuing to look for a job in that general area. I'm going to widen my search, and my interests on Monster.com, but I know all will be okay. I have been praying for God to give us direction, and I know He is talking to my heart. Am I afraid? Yes, but not of moving or starting over. My greatest fear is that God will call me to do something, and my husband is not going to be ready. However, even in that, I know that God will prepare us both for whatever He has in store for us.
Church was awesome yesterday. My husband is in the Christmas program and he had choir practice yesterday afternoon. While he was gone, the dogs and I listened to the sound track of Elf, and I made 68 dog treats, Honey and Oats. The dogs were very ready for them last night.
Have a God filled and blessed day!
Love, L
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
The Future
We cannot predict the future, and the choices we make in life shape our destiny. God however is in control of our lives, if you are a child of God that is.... I have been praying for Him to show us which direction to take and what we need to do. I don't know if this is a sign from God or not, but here is what has happened. My daughter and son in law will be moving after the first of the year to the general area of Keller, Texas. That is a good 2.5 to 3 hours away. I don't want to be that far from my daughter, so I have started looking for jobs in that area.
Yesterday, I came across a website with employment opportunities and they are headquartered in Southlake. That is not very far from Keller and a heck of a lot closer to Denton than I currently am, and that is where my family is at this time. With the prospect of grand babies in the next year or so, I've decided to apply for the job. I told my husband last night, and he said okay. We have been talking lately about both of us finding jobs that are regular and where they are not contingent on good weather and sunshine. He has stated once of twice about going back to work in the grocery business. I told him to do whatever makes him happy and not to worry about anything else. It is time we thought of ourselves and what will make us happy in the long run.
We would be leaving behind other family, friends from church and lots of memories, but we would be gaining a new outlook and chance at a life together and not having to worry all the time about money or asking for help from family, who is always there when I need them. (Thanks Raven and Caity) Love you both!
However time will tell with everything, and if that is not the direction I'm sure God will give us a sign.
Hope you all have a God Filled, and Blessed Day! Please pray for my job opportunity. It is something I could be happy with for a long time, and it will give me a chance to complete my schooling as well. Love, L.
Yesterday, I came across a website with employment opportunities and they are headquartered in Southlake. That is not very far from Keller and a heck of a lot closer to Denton than I currently am, and that is where my family is at this time. With the prospect of grand babies in the next year or so, I've decided to apply for the job. I told my husband last night, and he said okay. We have been talking lately about both of us finding jobs that are regular and where they are not contingent on good weather and sunshine. He has stated once of twice about going back to work in the grocery business. I told him to do whatever makes him happy and not to worry about anything else. It is time we thought of ourselves and what will make us happy in the long run.
We would be leaving behind other family, friends from church and lots of memories, but we would be gaining a new outlook and chance at a life together and not having to worry all the time about money or asking for help from family, who is always there when I need them. (Thanks Raven and Caity) Love you both!
However time will tell with everything, and if that is not the direction I'm sure God will give us a sign.
Hope you all have a God Filled, and Blessed Day! Please pray for my job opportunity. It is something I could be happy with for a long time, and it will give me a chance to complete my schooling as well. Love, L.
Friday, November 26, 2010
Feels Like Winter!
Okay so on Wednesday I was wearing shorts and flip flops and walking around outside. Drove to the store with the windows down and the sun was heavenly. Yesterday I carried a coat to my Mom's and wore it home. Heat is on, and all the ceiling fans are off. Two of the three dogs are wearing their sweaters. The big dog needs a pony blanket, because they don't make dog sweaters for dogs that weigh 120pounds and stand six foot tall on their hind legs.
Anyway, I have mini muffins in the oven for the dogs all though they smell so good, i might eat one. ( It's oats and honey flavored) Okay get a grip! It is people food, not dog food. Okay, so we drew names yesterday for Christmas at my mom's. We did couples and i got my niece and her boyfriend. I'm not sure what we are going to do for them yet, but I have a couple of thoughts.
Every time I think about Christmas, or anything like that, I have heart palpitations... No it's just that I want to do so much and money is tight, and I don't have any place to put a Christmas tree where we live. I was really hoping that God would provide us with a new place to live big enough I could put up a tree and decorate, but maybe next year.
Thanksgiving was great yesterday! Ate too much! Just normal for a holiday. Looking forward to Christmas Eve with my family and Christmas Day with Norman's family. Of course if someone wants to send me on a cruise to the Virgin Islands I won't complain. Soaking up sun on the beach with temperatures in the 70's and 80's sounds so good today! But I would miss everyone.
Don't forget your dogs for Christmas this year! Go to http://dixiedogtreatsntraining.com The What's new Page has a link to purchase my dog treat recipe book. Your dogs will love you forever!.. It's not very expensive!!! Please share the link and page with your friends.
May you all be blessed abundantly in whatever you seek! Have a God Filled Day! Love, L
Anyway, I have mini muffins in the oven for the dogs all though they smell so good, i might eat one. ( It's oats and honey flavored) Okay get a grip! It is people food, not dog food. Okay, so we drew names yesterday for Christmas at my mom's. We did couples and i got my niece and her boyfriend. I'm not sure what we are going to do for them yet, but I have a couple of thoughts.
Every time I think about Christmas, or anything like that, I have heart palpitations... No it's just that I want to do so much and money is tight, and I don't have any place to put a Christmas tree where we live. I was really hoping that God would provide us with a new place to live big enough I could put up a tree and decorate, but maybe next year.
Thanksgiving was great yesterday! Ate too much! Just normal for a holiday. Looking forward to Christmas Eve with my family and Christmas Day with Norman's family. Of course if someone wants to send me on a cruise to the Virgin Islands I won't complain. Soaking up sun on the beach with temperatures in the 70's and 80's sounds so good today! But I would miss everyone.
Don't forget your dogs for Christmas this year! Go to http://dixiedogtreatsntraining.com The What's new Page has a link to purchase my dog treat recipe book. Your dogs will love you forever!.. It's not very expensive!!! Please share the link and page with your friends.
May you all be blessed abundantly in whatever you seek! Have a God Filled Day! Love, L
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Thanksgiving Eve (I know)
Okay, I haven't felt this way about the holidays in years I think.....
I worked over at the church today and put in 3.5 hours. The office is closed on Friday, and my husband went to do a small repair job, which if he doesn't finish today, he will on Friday. I just spent about twenty or twenty five minutes on the phone with one of my best friends, Jean. She gave me a tip for a job.... I think I will email the lady and see what is going on. It would be back in relocation, so I'm not sure. It would depend on the job. Anyway, I'm trying to decide whether to go ahead and boil potatoes and get everything ready for the potato salad tonight so that all i need to do is put it together in the morning or to wait. Maybe I'll get my husband to make his cake tonight and then I can do the potato salad in the morning. I want to get to my mom's by lunch time at the latest.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. To Family and Friends that read this, I'm wishing you all the best day possible! May God Bless each and everyone of you abundantly in all that you seek. Seek His face first in everything you do. He is always there. Love you all, L. Have A God Filled Day!
I worked over at the church today and put in 3.5 hours. The office is closed on Friday, and my husband went to do a small repair job, which if he doesn't finish today, he will on Friday. I just spent about twenty or twenty five minutes on the phone with one of my best friends, Jean. She gave me a tip for a job.... I think I will email the lady and see what is going on. It would be back in relocation, so I'm not sure. It would depend on the job. Anyway, I'm trying to decide whether to go ahead and boil potatoes and get everything ready for the potato salad tonight so that all i need to do is put it together in the morning or to wait. Maybe I'll get my husband to make his cake tonight and then I can do the potato salad in the morning. I want to get to my mom's by lunch time at the latest.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. To Family and Friends that read this, I'm wishing you all the best day possible! May God Bless each and everyone of you abundantly in all that you seek. Seek His face first in everything you do. He is always there. Love you all, L. Have A God Filled Day!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Timeless Tuesday
Today has been one of the longest days I have experienced in a while. I miss the kids at school and this afternoon I walked over to see who was there. Only three there Emily, Jara and Laily. Laily's mom Tracy, and Ms. Melissa. I wish I hadn't resigned, but it was for the better. The school doesn't have to worry about paying 4 teachers when there really wasn't enough three year old students for two classes.
Changing the subject, Remember the song by Cyndi Lauper called Just another manic Monday!!!! That was yesterday. I know that this time of year is very slow for my husband's work, but I don't quite remember it being this slow last year. We are better off bill wise, because we have paid my car off, but when you look at everything in the long run, I still need to find work. I don't want to move... but it may come to that. We both need jobs that are steady at least for awhile.
Anyway, it is in God's hands right now. I've been job surfing all day practically, so much so I have a stress headache. On a different note, we are going to spend Thanksgiving with my family this year.... I can't wait to play games and laugh and have a good time. Almost everyone will be there except for my niece Misty, but she is being transferred to the half house from rehab. I am so proud of her! And my nephew John. They are finally turning their lives around.
I am thinking about maybe offering to babysit or watch a couple of kids after school to see if i get any takers. It wouldn't be much income but it would be some and with cleaning at the church it will help until I can find something full time. I'm not even sure what kind of job I want. I just want to be able to go to school and get my degree. Maybe I can find something at a childcare facility or something like that to help. Anyway, I guess that is where we are right now. If we move, I would definitely want to go the direction that my daughter and son in law are going. I'm not sure how that will effect my husband's work. We have to go where there is work. I am tired of worrying and not knowing what is going to happen. Yes i know about giving it to God, but let's face it, that is a whole lot easier said than done. I pray and talk to God all the time. He answers my prayers and I know i just have to have faith and trust in the Lord, and i do try to do that everyday, but Monday was my day for a nervous breakdown. And I had it.
My daughter is a great prayer warrior and we prayed together and all is turning out okay, not great but okay and it will get better. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and that you all are blessed greatly by God in all that you seek. Have a God Filled Day!
Changing the subject, Remember the song by Cyndi Lauper called Just another manic Monday!!!! That was yesterday. I know that this time of year is very slow for my husband's work, but I don't quite remember it being this slow last year. We are better off bill wise, because we have paid my car off, but when you look at everything in the long run, I still need to find work. I don't want to move... but it may come to that. We both need jobs that are steady at least for awhile.
Anyway, it is in God's hands right now. I've been job surfing all day practically, so much so I have a stress headache. On a different note, we are going to spend Thanksgiving with my family this year.... I can't wait to play games and laugh and have a good time. Almost everyone will be there except for my niece Misty, but she is being transferred to the half house from rehab. I am so proud of her! And my nephew John. They are finally turning their lives around.
I am thinking about maybe offering to babysit or watch a couple of kids after school to see if i get any takers. It wouldn't be much income but it would be some and with cleaning at the church it will help until I can find something full time. I'm not even sure what kind of job I want. I just want to be able to go to school and get my degree. Maybe I can find something at a childcare facility or something like that to help. Anyway, I guess that is where we are right now. If we move, I would definitely want to go the direction that my daughter and son in law are going. I'm not sure how that will effect my husband's work. We have to go where there is work. I am tired of worrying and not knowing what is going to happen. Yes i know about giving it to God, but let's face it, that is a whole lot easier said than done. I pray and talk to God all the time. He answers my prayers and I know i just have to have faith and trust in the Lord, and i do try to do that everyday, but Monday was my day for a nervous breakdown. And I had it.
My daughter is a great prayer warrior and we prayed together and all is turning out okay, not great but okay and it will get better. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and that you all are blessed greatly by God in all that you seek. Have a God Filled Day!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Priorities In Life
Okay after a long talk with God this morning, I've realized that I need to get my priorities straight. Playing games on Face book, playing solitaire, or doing things that are not productive should not be on that list. So after a lot of thinking and realizing that money for the next two weeks is going to be very, very tight, I've decided to re-organize things and get a plan together and in place. Of course, I need God to be at the top of that list, and He is.
So here are the things I'm trying to accomplish with God at the helm over the next six to seven months.
1. A closer walk with Jesus and He being first in my life.
2. An income from my freelance writing and my website to sustain us when Norman doesn't have any work.
3. To start school. I had some very unrealistic goals this last week concerning this, so if i don't get enrolled to start by January one, then I'm not going to freak out.
4. A place to live where, the electricity bill and utilities are not more than the rent. A place to live where we are not overrun by critters so to speak. A place to live where the floors don't give when you walk. A place to live that I can invite my family to spend the night. A place to live where if I decide to keep kids or provide childcare, I have room.
5. To plan and pay for our vow renewal ceremony, just the way we want it.
These are currently my priorities. I have other priorities but these take precedence currently. Number one will always be a priority no matter what else I have completed or accomplished. God, husband, work, family, and friends. Those are the way it is for now.
May you truly have a blessed and God Filled Day. love, L
So here are the things I'm trying to accomplish with God at the helm over the next six to seven months.
1. A closer walk with Jesus and He being first in my life.
2. An income from my freelance writing and my website to sustain us when Norman doesn't have any work.
3. To start school. I had some very unrealistic goals this last week concerning this, so if i don't get enrolled to start by January one, then I'm not going to freak out.
4. A place to live where, the electricity bill and utilities are not more than the rent. A place to live where we are not overrun by critters so to speak. A place to live where the floors don't give when you walk. A place to live that I can invite my family to spend the night. A place to live where if I decide to keep kids or provide childcare, I have room.
5. To plan and pay for our vow renewal ceremony, just the way we want it.
These are currently my priorities. I have other priorities but these take precedence currently. Number one will always be a priority no matter what else I have completed or accomplished. God, husband, work, family, and friends. Those are the way it is for now.
May you truly have a blessed and God Filled Day. love, L
Monday, November 1, 2010
My laptop is repaired!!!!!!!
Okay I know it is lame but we have been sharing a computer for probably almost a month, which is not a big deal when we are both working. But if he doesn't have any work then he is here at home when I get home from work and alas we both can't get on the computer at the same time. So he took the computers to see if they could be repaired. Thanks Honey! I love you with all my heart! (My laptop was fixable)
Anyway, his desktop computer is dead. He's genealogy database was on it so now it is time to rebuild the data base and this time back it up to a disk. I'm writing again since I'm not working at the school any longer and so far so good. I should be able to make at least 125 a week, once I get into the swing of things. I made about 32 in four hours last week. Not bad, but definitely not going to pay the bills.
Anyway, God is taking care of things and we will be fine. We drove by a house, but it just didn't feel completely right. Not ruling it out, but not going to go jump on it.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a great day! May God Bless Your Socks off! as my friend says.
Love, L.
Anyway, his desktop computer is dead. He's genealogy database was on it so now it is time to rebuild the data base and this time back it up to a disk. I'm writing again since I'm not working at the school any longer and so far so good. I should be able to make at least 125 a week, once I get into the swing of things. I made about 32 in four hours last week. Not bad, but definitely not going to pay the bills.
Anyway, God is taking care of things and we will be fine. We drove by a house, but it just didn't feel completely right. Not ruling it out, but not going to go jump on it.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a great day! May God Bless Your Socks off! as my friend says.
Love, L.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
My First Day as a School Teacher
Okay so Tuesday, August 31st, was my first day as a preschool teacher and it was awesome! I had six little three year olds; one boy and 5 girls. They are all very precious and even though the day was kind of hectic, we did have fun and learn a few things. The letter of the week is A a, the number for the month is "1", the color of the month is "red" and the shape of the month is "Circle".
Nap time was from about 1:30/1:40 until 3:00 or whenever the parents make it by to pick up their little people. I love them all, already and I can't wait for tomorrow. They each have their own cubbie.
Nap time was from about 1:30/1:40 until 3:00 or whenever the parents make it by to pick up their little people. I love them all, already and I can't wait for tomorrow. They each have their own cubbie.
With there very own water bottle, nap mat, and their name is on there, too! They can bring their own blanket and pillow too!
We have part of a board on one wall of our room. On that board we have a poster with names and birthdays of the children, and all the teachers. We also have a section labeled our class and it has all our first names written.
There is also a poster with our numbers up to the number "Ten". Hopefully by the end of the school year they will be able to count to at least 10, but we are hoping that maybe they can even make it to 20.
In the mornings we have what we call our morning songs. First we say a prayer to start the day, and then we do all our pledges: Pledge of Allegiance, Texas Flag Pledge, Christian Flag Pledge, and the Pledge to the Holy Bible. We sing about the days of the week, the month and we do alphabet sounds. On our board we have the month, with all the numbers of the day for the month, and we have a poster that tells them what today is, yesterday was, and what tomorrow will be.
There is also a poster that talks about the season, and the weather for the day. We also have our shape, color and number for the month on this board. We do a bible verse for each letter we learn and we do the verse about the fruit of the Spirit. There is a poster for each characteristic. Here is the verse: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance. Galatians 5:22-23a.
One of the highlights of Tuesday was that we had colored noodles, pink and blue, and they got to cut them up and play with them. Thanks Miss Melissa!. That afternoon the kids asked if they could play with the worms again!
Someone told me today, that they think this is my calling. If it is,God will definitely make sure it all works out and I will pursue my teaching certificate.
May you all be blessed beyond your beliefs, by the one and true living God.
Love, L
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
To My Daughter
When I asked God 24 years and 14 months ago (you were baking for 9 of those, more like 10) for someone to love me unconditionally, I had no idea that He would bless me with someone like you. You have taught me to be patient, understanding, and gentle. You have taught me that no matter what we are always there for each other.
I love the person you have become. You are beautiful, intelligent, giving, caring and thoughtful. You are a daughter, a wife, a granddaughter, a sister and one day soon you too, will be a mother. I hope for you a daughter just like I received from God. I love that you walk with God, and that your faith is strong. I love that you have that joy in your heart that only God can place there.
Over the years we have played, laughed and probably done some things we shouldn't. I've enjoyed every minute of every day that we have spent together. Even though there were times when we were angry, we never left one another. I know it was probably tough on you growing up with out a dad around all the time, but you had something better. You had a grandfather that loved you as if you were his. He was so happy the day I told him and Nanny that I was going to have a baby. He was all smiles.
I know that I have made mistakes while you were growing up, but we learned together and I want so much for you. I want you to dream big dreams, laugh as much as possible, love with all your heart and know that above everything else, you were a gift from God.
Cherish every day as if it were you last. Never forget to tell people you love them, and never let angry words hurt those you love. You are and will always be, my baby girl. Love, Mom.
I love the person you have become. You are beautiful, intelligent, giving, caring and thoughtful. You are a daughter, a wife, a granddaughter, a sister and one day soon you too, will be a mother. I hope for you a daughter just like I received from God. I love that you walk with God, and that your faith is strong. I love that you have that joy in your heart that only God can place there.
Over the years we have played, laughed and probably done some things we shouldn't. I've enjoyed every minute of every day that we have spent together. Even though there were times when we were angry, we never left one another. I know it was probably tough on you growing up with out a dad around all the time, but you had something better. You had a grandfather that loved you as if you were his. He was so happy the day I told him and Nanny that I was going to have a baby. He was all smiles.
I know that I have made mistakes while you were growing up, but we learned together and I want so much for you. I want you to dream big dreams, laugh as much as possible, love with all your heart and know that above everything else, you were a gift from God.
Cherish every day as if it were you last. Never forget to tell people you love them, and never let angry words hurt those you love. You are and will always be, my baby girl. Love, Mom.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Your Dreams
I am a Facebook user and over the last week or so there have been some people who have posted a status similar to "Never give up or walk away from a dream that you can't go a day without thinking about." Do dreams have deadlines? Only if we set them up to have one. There are five things or dreams I still want to accomplish before I leave this world:
1) To have a place for my husband and I to call our own and grow old together.
2) To be a published author.
3) To train dogs to help people whether that is as therapy dogs, or service dogs of some kind like for the hearing impaired, or just as a companion.
4) To finish recovery and to help others through the process.
5) To be the best I can be for God, so that other people come to know Him as their Savior, and Lord.
I work on all five of thesealmost more than once a day or more than a daily basis if that is possible. I know that I can accomplish my dreams and I will never give them up. It is not for recognition, fame or fortune. It is because it is something I feel strongly about. There are just some things in this life that cause us or move us emotionally, physically and spiritually. These are mine. Just because it is taking longer than you wanted or planned does not mean you give it up. We all experience setbacks. Remember that God answers prayers and take cares of all our needs. Remember it is in His time frame, not ours. Maybe instead of giving up - it is time to examine your heart - Get it right with God. Stop trying to "Fix" it or people. Ask God to "fix" you or help you and then stand Firm in your Faith.
With all my love, I say these things. I know that some of you are having a difficult time. God gave me this yesterday and I knew I had to share it with everyone. Have a God Filled Day! Never Give Up. God is there waiting for you to ask Him for whatever your needs are and to thank Him for being your Lord and Savior. And if you haven't asked Him into your heart, maybe now is the time.
Love, L
1) To have a place for my husband and I to call our own and grow old together.
2) To be a published author.
3) To train dogs to help people whether that is as therapy dogs, or service dogs of some kind like for the hearing impaired, or just as a companion.
4) To finish recovery and to help others through the process.
5) To be the best I can be for God, so that other people come to know Him as their Savior, and Lord.
I work on all five of these
With all my love, I say these things. I know that some of you are having a difficult time. God gave me this yesterday and I knew I had to share it with everyone. Have a God Filled Day! Never Give Up. God is there waiting for you to ask Him for whatever your needs are and to thank Him for being your Lord and Savior. And if you haven't asked Him into your heart, maybe now is the time.
Love, L
Thursday, June 10, 2010
Separating Your Feelings
There are times lately that I have a hard time separating out my feelings. I pretty sure most of it is because I am going to recovery meetings and it takes you through a lot of self-examination. During the day, my mood fluctuates so much that I can cry one minute and laugh myself to tears the next. Are my hormones screwed up? Probably. I've needed to go to the doctor for hormonal issues for more than a year. No health insurance and lack of income stop me from going.
Some days I feel I have given up a lot in the last few years and I am resentful that I've had to do that, not because I was asked to give them up, but because I had to make some very difficult decisions. Do I ever wish I could turn back time? Several hundred times a week. Would it make a difference? Probably not.
But I do have some regrets that have caused a lot of guilt feelings. The guilt won't seem to go away, and I hope as I travel through on the road to recovery, that they will. I lean more on God every day. I find myself praying and don't even realize that I am doing it. I find myself singing a song in my head from church service on Sunday morning, or from one I've been listening too on the radio at the house. It's not a bad thing, because it keeps me from reliving things from my past. It keeps anger at bay. And I feel closer to God and eventually kind of calm inside.
The dreams that are happening, I'm sure stem from recovery and having to analyze things from my past. One or two things that keep coming back to surface is the question about being selfish. I've never thought of myself as being selfish, maybe I am and just don't see. I'm sure I could pose the question to family and friends and they would be more than happy to answer. Oh but am I ready for that part of recovery? I'm not even sure I'm ready for recovery.
Okay and just as a reminder, recovery is not just for drug addicts or alcoholics. It is for people who have been hurt in their past from many different things or maybe because they have other addictions that could eventually harm them or ruin their lives. So before you look down your nose at someone because they are attending recovery meetings, examine your own past. Maybe you need to go too!
Some days I feel I have given up a lot in the last few years and I am resentful that I've had to do that, not because I was asked to give them up, but because I had to make some very difficult decisions. Do I ever wish I could turn back time? Several hundred times a week. Would it make a difference? Probably not.
But I do have some regrets that have caused a lot of guilt feelings. The guilt won't seem to go away, and I hope as I travel through on the road to recovery, that they will. I lean more on God every day. I find myself praying and don't even realize that I am doing it. I find myself singing a song in my head from church service on Sunday morning, or from one I've been listening too on the radio at the house. It's not a bad thing, because it keeps me from reliving things from my past. It keeps anger at bay. And I feel closer to God and eventually kind of calm inside.
The dreams that are happening, I'm sure stem from recovery and having to analyze things from my past. One or two things that keep coming back to surface is the question about being selfish. I've never thought of myself as being selfish, maybe I am and just don't see. I'm sure I could pose the question to family and friends and they would be more than happy to answer. Oh but am I ready for that part of recovery? I'm not even sure I'm ready for recovery.
Okay and just as a reminder, recovery is not just for drug addicts or alcoholics. It is for people who have been hurt in their past from many different things or maybe because they have other addictions that could eventually harm them or ruin their lives. So before you look down your nose at someone because they are attending recovery meetings, examine your own past. Maybe you need to go too!
Monday, March 8, 2010
Crying for no reason
Friday, March 5th, was a very strange day. I cried for the majority of the day and couldn't really place a specific reason to the crying. When I wasn't crying, I was throwing up. Stress causes that since I've had a gastric bypass. The more stressed, the more I throw up. I took a shower because I thought I would feel better and it did help. Did it fix what was wrong? No. I prayed, I cried, I slept, and I tried to eat. Eating only caused pain from throwing up. I'm sure part of what was wrong is that I know we are at some kind of crossroads again. Work is good, but the weather prevents us from working more than two days in a row lately. I know we are going to be fine, because God is taking care of things, but it is only human to be afraid of what is going to happen. It is a battle that I can't win, but God can. I think it is funny, how the closer your relationship to God gets, the more emotional you become. Why is that? There are suppose to be no tears in heaven, I will be glad. I feel that I have cried enough for any human in the last 18 months. I know that all will be well. I'm giving the battle to God to fight. Now I just need to sit, listen and follow His instructions. May all have a blessed and God day. Love, L
Monday, December 7, 2009
Typical Monday
Its a typical Monday morning, chilly, damp and I don't want to work outside today.. But I will if we go. We are close to finishing this job and I really hope we make enough to catch things up and have enough for a little Christmas. If not, I'm sure God will take care of our needs. I miss my family, my friends, and my socializing outside of family with co-workers and clients. I don't miss the clients enough to want to go back to corporate America, but I do miss it.
We made both church services yesterday. I really like the church and the people. I can feel God at work there, and sometimes it is hard not to cry during singing and invitation. I know that is God working in my life. I know God has something wonderful planned for me and Norman. I just wish He would let us know what it is.
Hope you all have a wonderful, God blessed day! Wishing each and everyone of you a very Merry Christmas!
Bible Verse: 1 Peter 1:16
Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.
We made both church services yesterday. I really like the church and the people. I can feel God at work there, and sometimes it is hard not to cry during singing and invitation. I know that is God working in my life. I know God has something wonderful planned for me and Norman. I just wish He would let us know what it is.
Hope you all have a wonderful, God blessed day! Wishing each and everyone of you a very Merry Christmas!
Bible Verse: 1 Peter 1:16
Because it is written, Be ye holy; for I am holy.
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