Fear and Anger - My constant battle

I made a new discovery this week and I know that only God can help me with my issue. The two emotions fear and angry, plague me on a regular basis. Some of it I'm sure is because of hormonal imbalances in my body, but for the most part, it is just an issue. Fear not so much as anger, but I do find myself in a place I don't like to be. Let me start with my anger issue. It revolves around a person. I've tried to step back out from my hard feelings and re-analyze the issues that I have with this person. I've stopped making remarks because all it does is make me the bad person. If this person comes up in polite conversation between me and other friends, I just nod affirmatively or say "yes." It doesn't however, stop the feeling of angry that rises in me. I've prayed for understanding, wisdom and knowledge on how to help this person, deal with this person and do whatever it is that God needs me to do for this person. I felt God telling me to do something at one point. I did what was asked of me, but it didn't seem to help and I felt I received the brush off from this person. SO I guess all in all I'm just asking for prayer to help me with my anger. I'm not sure that there is a cure for a relationship with this person, I've not given up, but I don't know that things will ever be good, maybe tolerable at best.

Now to my second emotional issue, Fear. I know that fear is caused by Satan, and with fear comes worry. I feel that I have more than hit bottom with this one. It doesn't seem to matter how much support or encouragement I receive, I can't get rid of it. I've bond Satan and prayed in Jesus name for Satan to be banished from my house, my life, and my family. Maybe I'm not doing it right. With this fear comes my ability to strike out and hurt the people I love the most. My husband usually catches most of it, and part of the fear I have is because of his recent accident and the results we have received so far. I don't mean to do that, and once it happens, then I'm even more emotional because of what I have said or done or both. I need God's help. I've asked for it the only way I know how, in prayer, at the bottom of my emotional pit. The pit of fear is very deep. The dirt has not started to fall in on top of me yet, but I feel it is close. I know that Jesus will not let me slip away into nothingness because He is always here and He loves me. Please pray. May God Bless everyone and especially those that read this entry. Help me to overcome. L

I was on a Mission

I left the house yesterday on a mission, a two part mission. The first part was to try to find a place to rent and although I found a couple of places, it was nothing affordable. The second part of my mission was to find a software program to allow me to publish my ebook and do other desktop publishing jobs. So here are the results of my mission. First was it successful? Yes, Did I accomplish what I set out to do? No, what I came home with was God lead. I came home with two books. One is a daily devotional reading which I needed. The second one was a book called God's Promises for your every need. God provides what we need when we need it. God provides for all that we need and I need to learn to trust that and hold one to the promises. I'm trying very hard to get rid of the dark harbored feelings I have towards some people and accept them for who they are. Will they do the same? God has to deal with them, not me. This is praying that everyone learns to lean more on God and not the world for our needs. I pray for a blessed and happy, healthy day for everyone. Love, L