Wednesday, March 31, 2010

Just Life

Okay, I turned 48 on Monday and today, we are celebrating our 4th wedding anniversary. Life is good. We have a good church home, a place to live, food to eat, and currently we have work. Life is good, but God is Great!

I've had a sinus infection and ear infection since Saturday, and I'm finally feeling better. God is Awesome! My husband and I are planning on singing at church. We've picked out 4 songs and have been listening to all of them. The members at church, (by the way we go to Emory Baptist Church www.emorybaptist.org ) have been trying to get my husband, Norman, to join the choir. He does have a wonderful voice and sings harmony quite well. I'm still a little frightened about singing, but only because without someone to sing along with me, I can't keep the tune, unless it is in a bucket.

We will probably be moving in the next couple of months. We are praying that God will allow us to move back to my house in the orchard. I just want things to be simple again. I think they are on the way, and I'm praying that God will continue to show us signs that we are headed the right way.

Be Blessed! God is Awesome!

Love to all,
L

Thursday, March 25, 2010

25 Random Things You Might Not Know

Okay I have a friend who is having issues with her creative juices today and she did a random post of 25 things and wanted it to continue... So here are mine..

1. At my highest weight, I weigh 322 pounds.

2. I am a clean drug addict...

3. I am trying to quit drinking.

4. I had a child out of wedlock

5. I'm tired of worrying what other people think

6. I like romance novels

7. I love vampires

8. I don't like Barney or Sponge Bob and I don't have kids little enough to watch them, but my grown kids watch cartoons. (I don't think they watch Barney)

9. I pray for my daughter and son to have a baby

10. I met my husband on match.com

11. I have two tattoos and I'm not ashamed of them, and want to add to one I already have.

12. I accepted Christ at the age of 12.

13. I've walked away several times from church

14. I want to live some place warm

15. I suffer from Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, and lately it is causing me to have Anxiety attacks.

16. I want a berm house with a deck and grill patio/swimming pool on the topside.

17. I want to have more dogs

18. I always want my husband to be in love with me, and me with him.

19. I have anger issues with slow people. (Not mentally slow)

20. I started a new internet business and pray for success. As part of that, I'm making home made dog treats, all natural and selling them locally.

21. I've had 9 surgeries since I was 7 or 8, and plan one more before all is said and done.

22. I want to be more spiritually than I am, but don't think I'll ever get there.

23. God loves me and I love him, and nothing else should matter. Right?

24. Debt is eating us alive.

25. I want to swim with sharks off the great barrier reef.

Okay not sure that is what she intended, but there are my 25 random facts. If you have a blog, list your 25 random facts and let me know so I can go read.

Wednesday, March 10, 2010

If you find my mind

Could you send it back? I seem to have lost it somewhere along the way today or maybe it was yesterday. I've called it and called it and it refuses to come home. Its not a bad mind, but it has been having some wild and crazy thoughts lately.

If it will come home and try to be sane, I promise not to make it work too hard or think too much.. Or at least I will try. It constantly runs it seems... It no longer walks, or sleeps or anything, but run rampant.

But I do need it back, so if you see it, please send it home.

Lemonade Outta Lemons

So I've heard this phrase a 1000 times, and here are my questions: Which lemons do you use? No all kidding aside, Life does throw us lemons from time to time, and we all try to make the best of a bad situation, but sometimes, it is very hard to decide which one lemon we use first. The economy is bad all around, and if it is getting better I want someone to show me where, because that is where I need to go live.





Being a general contractor is not the best job to have in a world when the economy is horrible. Being a general contractor when the weather won't cooperate is horrible. Neither of which we have any control over, and hope and pray from day to day that things will get better.



So how do you decide which lemon to use first? And in my case, I don't really like lemonade and with all the lemons I've gotten lately, I don't want to drink that much lemonade. Any one want a glass?

P.S. Okay I don't really know where I was going with this, but hey, I couldn't just delete it!

May God Bless You, L

Monday, March 8, 2010

Crying for no reason

Friday, March 5th, was a very strange day. I cried for the majority of the day and couldn't really place a specific reason to the crying. When I wasn't crying, I was throwing up. Stress causes that since I've had a gastric bypass. The more stressed, the more I throw up. I took a shower because I thought I would feel better and it did help. Did it fix what was wrong? No. I prayed, I cried, I slept, and I tried to eat. Eating only caused pain from throwing up. I'm sure part of what was wrong is that I know we are at some kind of crossroads again. Work is good, but the weather prevents us from working more than two days in a row lately. I know we are going to be fine, because God is taking care of things, but it is only human to be afraid of what is going to happen. It is a battle that I can't win, but God can. I think it is funny, how the closer your relationship to God gets, the more emotional you become. Why is that? There are suppose to be no tears in heaven, I will be glad. I feel that I have cried enough for any human in the last 18 months. I know that all will be well. I'm giving the battle to God to fight. Now I just need to sit, listen and follow His instructions. May all have a blessed and God day. Love, L