I have shared a lot on my blog over the last month. I've shared our anxiety of not having work, not being able to pay bills and worry over if we were going to have a place to live. I've filled out job application after job application and had no calls. However, after much prayer and thanking God for all the things He does for us, I received a job offer from my old company sort of. I start work for them on Thursday, the 16th as a contract or temporary employee. It is for a group move and it is a two hour drive for me to go to work and a two hour drive for me to get home. It's okay though! I know it is temporary and this will give my husband time to find a regular job, not one that depends on good weather and a good economy. He and I are both going to try to work for awhile at regular jobs and get caught up, paid off, and buy us a permanent place to live.
I changed my school schedule to accommodate my working full time. Until we get to where we don't need me to work full time, I will only go to school part time. Yes it will take longer for me to get my degree, but it is okay and will pay off in the long run. I'm also taking a free basic bookkeeping class that hopefully will brush up my knowledge enough that I can get something in an accounting department or for a company, doing basic bookkeeping once the full time work is gone in Addison. Either way, I know that God heard our pleas and has answered one of our many prayers.
Life is going to be a little different and it will take some adjusting, but what we have received from God and what we are able to do is beyond what we had hoped. So although we aren't out of the woods, we can see the clearing and God is smiling upon us and blessing us constantly. Thank you God. Thank you for our friends, family and your Church. We couldn't have made it the last two weeks without any of it and especially without you.
Love, L
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Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Thursday, March 17, 2011
Progress in Life
School started on March 2nd, and to say I was a little fearful would be right on the money. However, I am on the third week of school and am much calmer and not fearful any longer. I'm ahead in my math course by two chapters and plan to be finished with the next two by the end of this week. Now when things are going good, the devil likes to make life interesting. So last Thursday after suffering with a toothache for three days I went to the dentist. They cut the tooth out on Monday and I was not able to do any school work. I became very anxious, but I had planned ahead and had already printed off my lectures and assignments for the week. So on Tuesday morning and off and on all day, I worked on school work for my FYE class. First Year Experience in case you wondered. So because of the tooth extraction, I missed work on Tuesday as well and was a little worried, but God always provides and the devil will run when you evoke Jesus name. It turns out that I will be working everyday next week because Chio, the regular custodian, has had a death in the family. My prayers go out to him and his family.
I guess what I'm getting at is that it is turning out to be a positive experience, and I think I'm going to try to bump up my classes. I know that this is the right thing to do because God is making it happen one step at a time. So if you are thinking about going back to school and how you are going to manage, God will provide the way and make sure you have what you need. Your faith in God will see you through. May you all have a blessed Day!
Love,
L
I guess what I'm getting at is that it is turning out to be a positive experience, and I think I'm going to try to bump up my classes. I know that this is the right thing to do because God is making it happen one step at a time. So if you are thinking about going back to school and how you are going to manage, God will provide the way and make sure you have what you need. Your faith in God will see you through. May you all have a blessed Day!
Love,
L
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Just a Little Catch Up
I took Friday, January 28th off as it was my daughter's 25th birthday and we spent most of the day together. It was fun! It has been a long time since I've had a girl's day and it was much enjoyed. We ate lunch at Chili's (so yes I have to start my weight loss over) and we went to the movies and saw "The Rite" with Anthony Hopkins. All and all it was a good day.
Also on Friday morning I did a little research on schools that offer accounting degrees online. Why? Well I took an aptitude test on Thursday and it said that I should be an accountant. Which as I think about it, I took it for two years in high school and it was something I truly enjoyed. I do like numbers. So I found a few schools, but the top one listed was Bryant & Stratton. So I requested admissions info and received a call within an hour.
I received everything I need by email to apply, request transcripts, get financial aid, and I have to complete a short essay. The fear of doing something and completing it, and changing my career or what was my career for 24 years is a little much. The thought keeps going through my head, "Can I actually do this?" If I do school full time, each semester is 15 weeks, divided in to two 7.5 week, and you only take two classes for each 7.5 week period. I have to test in math and English to see where they will place me, but in 20 months I can have an accounting degree.
Also this past week, I've decided to sell my car. I walk to work, and we do have the truck so it's not like we won't have a vehicle. It will just have to come home and be here for the weekends so I can run all errands. This is really all very much a life changer in the works. I also know that this is a change from being a teacher, but my sanity won out on that one. I'm a good self-starter and it doesn't bother me to work alone, so being a bookkeeper or keeping books for a few small companies would not bother me.
The cost is pretty steep as for as the degree, but if it is suppose to be, God will take care of it. If it is not suppose to be, there will be obstacles that cannot be overcome. So my journey starts by sending the paperwork back and I plan to do that on Monday after work.
If we can make this all come together for the next few months, then life will definitely be better financially and we will be able to get some things done, including moving to be closer to my kids when the time comes. I just need to stay focused and work at the church and do school. I will be able to work at my own pace and I have one on one tutoring if i need it. So friends, family and followers, please say a little prayer for us, me. We always need prayers, but needing a little extra as we face this next challenge.
Have a God filled Weekend!
Love,
L
Also on Friday morning I did a little research on schools that offer accounting degrees online. Why? Well I took an aptitude test on Thursday and it said that I should be an accountant. Which as I think about it, I took it for two years in high school and it was something I truly enjoyed. I do like numbers. So I found a few schools, but the top one listed was Bryant & Stratton. So I requested admissions info and received a call within an hour.
I received everything I need by email to apply, request transcripts, get financial aid, and I have to complete a short essay. The fear of doing something and completing it, and changing my career or what was my career for 24 years is a little much. The thought keeps going through my head, "Can I actually do this?" If I do school full time, each semester is 15 weeks, divided in to two 7.5 week, and you only take two classes for each 7.5 week period. I have to test in math and English to see where they will place me, but in 20 months I can have an accounting degree.
Also this past week, I've decided to sell my car. I walk to work, and we do have the truck so it's not like we won't have a vehicle. It will just have to come home and be here for the weekends so I can run all errands. This is really all very much a life changer in the works. I also know that this is a change from being a teacher, but my sanity won out on that one. I'm a good self-starter and it doesn't bother me to work alone, so being a bookkeeper or keeping books for a few small companies would not bother me.
The cost is pretty steep as for as the degree, but if it is suppose to be, God will take care of it. If it is not suppose to be, there will be obstacles that cannot be overcome. So my journey starts by sending the paperwork back and I plan to do that on Monday after work.
If we can make this all come together for the next few months, then life will definitely be better financially and we will be able to get some things done, including moving to be closer to my kids when the time comes. I just need to stay focused and work at the church and do school. I will be able to work at my own pace and I have one on one tutoring if i need it. So friends, family and followers, please say a little prayer for us, me. We always need prayers, but needing a little extra as we face this next challenge.
Have a God filled Weekend!
Love,
L
Tuesday, November 30, 2010
The Future
We cannot predict the future, and the choices we make in life shape our destiny. God however is in control of our lives, if you are a child of God that is.... I have been praying for Him to show us which direction to take and what we need to do. I don't know if this is a sign from God or not, but here is what has happened. My daughter and son in law will be moving after the first of the year to the general area of Keller, Texas. That is a good 2.5 to 3 hours away. I don't want to be that far from my daughter, so I have started looking for jobs in that area.
Yesterday, I came across a website with employment opportunities and they are headquartered in Southlake. That is not very far from Keller and a heck of a lot closer to Denton than I currently am, and that is where my family is at this time. With the prospect of grand babies in the next year or so, I've decided to apply for the job. I told my husband last night, and he said okay. We have been talking lately about both of us finding jobs that are regular and where they are not contingent on good weather and sunshine. He has stated once of twice about going back to work in the grocery business. I told him to do whatever makes him happy and not to worry about anything else. It is time we thought of ourselves and what will make us happy in the long run.
We would be leaving behind other family, friends from church and lots of memories, but we would be gaining a new outlook and chance at a life together and not having to worry all the time about money or asking for help from family, who is always there when I need them. (Thanks Raven and Caity) Love you both!
However time will tell with everything, and if that is not the direction I'm sure God will give us a sign.
Hope you all have a God Filled, and Blessed Day! Please pray for my job opportunity. It is something I could be happy with for a long time, and it will give me a chance to complete my schooling as well. Love, L.
Yesterday, I came across a website with employment opportunities and they are headquartered in Southlake. That is not very far from Keller and a heck of a lot closer to Denton than I currently am, and that is where my family is at this time. With the prospect of grand babies in the next year or so, I've decided to apply for the job. I told my husband last night, and he said okay. We have been talking lately about both of us finding jobs that are regular and where they are not contingent on good weather and sunshine. He has stated once of twice about going back to work in the grocery business. I told him to do whatever makes him happy and not to worry about anything else. It is time we thought of ourselves and what will make us happy in the long run.
We would be leaving behind other family, friends from church and lots of memories, but we would be gaining a new outlook and chance at a life together and not having to worry all the time about money or asking for help from family, who is always there when I need them. (Thanks Raven and Caity) Love you both!
However time will tell with everything, and if that is not the direction I'm sure God will give us a sign.
Hope you all have a God Filled, and Blessed Day! Please pray for my job opportunity. It is something I could be happy with for a long time, and it will give me a chance to complete my schooling as well. Love, L.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Timeless Tuesday
Today has been one of the longest days I have experienced in a while. I miss the kids at school and this afternoon I walked over to see who was there. Only three there Emily, Jara and Laily. Laily's mom Tracy, and Ms. Melissa. I wish I hadn't resigned, but it was for the better. The school doesn't have to worry about paying 4 teachers when there really wasn't enough three year old students for two classes.
Changing the subject, Remember the song by Cyndi Lauper called Just another manic Monday!!!! That was yesterday. I know that this time of year is very slow for my husband's work, but I don't quite remember it being this slow last year. We are better off bill wise, because we have paid my car off, but when you look at everything in the long run, I still need to find work. I don't want to move... but it may come to that. We both need jobs that are steady at least for awhile.
Anyway, it is in God's hands right now. I've been job surfing all day practically, so much so I have a stress headache. On a different note, we are going to spend Thanksgiving with my family this year.... I can't wait to play games and laugh and have a good time. Almost everyone will be there except for my niece Misty, but she is being transferred to the half house from rehab. I am so proud of her! And my nephew John. They are finally turning their lives around.
I am thinking about maybe offering to babysit or watch a couple of kids after school to see if i get any takers. It wouldn't be much income but it would be some and with cleaning at the church it will help until I can find something full time. I'm not even sure what kind of job I want. I just want to be able to go to school and get my degree. Maybe I can find something at a childcare facility or something like that to help. Anyway, I guess that is where we are right now. If we move, I would definitely want to go the direction that my daughter and son in law are going. I'm not sure how that will effect my husband's work. We have to go where there is work. I am tired of worrying and not knowing what is going to happen. Yes i know about giving it to God, but let's face it, that is a whole lot easier said than done. I pray and talk to God all the time. He answers my prayers and I know i just have to have faith and trust in the Lord, and i do try to do that everyday, but Monday was my day for a nervous breakdown. And I had it.
My daughter is a great prayer warrior and we prayed together and all is turning out okay, not great but okay and it will get better. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and that you all are blessed greatly by God in all that you seek. Have a God Filled Day!
Changing the subject, Remember the song by Cyndi Lauper called Just another manic Monday!!!! That was yesterday. I know that this time of year is very slow for my husband's work, but I don't quite remember it being this slow last year. We are better off bill wise, because we have paid my car off, but when you look at everything in the long run, I still need to find work. I don't want to move... but it may come to that. We both need jobs that are steady at least for awhile.
Anyway, it is in God's hands right now. I've been job surfing all day practically, so much so I have a stress headache. On a different note, we are going to spend Thanksgiving with my family this year.... I can't wait to play games and laugh and have a good time. Almost everyone will be there except for my niece Misty, but she is being transferred to the half house from rehab. I am so proud of her! And my nephew John. They are finally turning their lives around.
I am thinking about maybe offering to babysit or watch a couple of kids after school to see if i get any takers. It wouldn't be much income but it would be some and with cleaning at the church it will help until I can find something full time. I'm not even sure what kind of job I want. I just want to be able to go to school and get my degree. Maybe I can find something at a childcare facility or something like that to help. Anyway, I guess that is where we are right now. If we move, I would definitely want to go the direction that my daughter and son in law are going. I'm not sure how that will effect my husband's work. We have to go where there is work. I am tired of worrying and not knowing what is going to happen. Yes i know about giving it to God, but let's face it, that is a whole lot easier said than done. I pray and talk to God all the time. He answers my prayers and I know i just have to have faith and trust in the Lord, and i do try to do that everyday, but Monday was my day for a nervous breakdown. And I had it.
My daughter is a great prayer warrior and we prayed together and all is turning out okay, not great but okay and it will get better. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and that you all are blessed greatly by God in all that you seek. Have a God Filled Day!
Friday, August 6, 2010
Finally Friday!!!
It's finally Friday and it has been an awesome week! My mom came down on the 30th of July and stayed with my daughter until this morning. BY THE WAY MOM....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
It has come to my attention that I haven't lost my temper but once this week.... That is a major accomplishment, and I haven't been angry but once this week... same day. I know that is because I've given my life to GOD.
GOD has answered two of my prayers this week, so if you doubt that GOD hears you, DON'T. However you have to be willing to listen and to do what HE asks you to do, when you give your life to GOD. I know this is a bunch of rambling, but my mind has been running 100mph today, even when I took a little nap, I dreamed in super fast speed. HAHA! Glad there wasn't any policemen in my dream... I might have a ticket!! LOL.
Recovery meeting was awesome last night and my husband, Norman (For those who don't know his name) stood in front of the group again and shared, and made a joke, which I was part of... it was quite funny! He told the group that anyone that needed to talk, could call the house and it didn't matter if it was 4 am. He said, "My wife will answer the phone," and there was a 1000 laughs (okay so I exaggerate a little). Then he said, "No really she always hears the phone and will answer and wake me up. It's true. I'm not a very deep sleeper.
What prayers did GOD answer for me this week? I will share one. Since I quit working in corporate America, I haven't had any friends. Oh I have email buddies, and people I talk to on Face book, but no one to call and say let's go to sonic, or want to go to the movies or anything like that. So I've been praying that someone would come along. Some one that was a christian, that shared the same beliefs, and that it would just seem inevitable that we were going to be friends. Well it happened. A young lady from church that I see almost every day asked me to become her prayer partner and we just hit it off! We've been talking and sharing for awhile. She is sooooo sweet!!!!! Anyway, she was the answer to my prayer. She is a great friend and I know we are going to be good friends for a long time.
So let's see oh yeah, I was cleaning the auditorium today. The baptistry has been filled going on three weeks now. On Thursday, I went over and threw some bleach in it to kill anything growing (Just kidding), but we do have a cricket problem right now. The little buggers are every where. So today after I dusted the auditorium I went up into the baptistry to dip out crickets. Well I got what I could reach by standing on the very top, no water. However, some of the little buggers were in the middle. So being a good Baptist, I took off my flip flips and walked down the first couple of steps. Water just above my ankles and I was able to get a couple more. However, the pump kicked on, and they started swirling out to the middle. Now I wear shorts and a T-shirt to clean in, but I really didn't want to go swimming in the Baptistry. So I took one more step down, water to my knees now and was able to get a couple more. However, then I guess I swirled the water to much because on the filter, a couple that were stuck fell off. And went to the bottom. As I stood there looking at the crickets, and the depth of the water, I realized that there was no way to get the rest without getting a little wet. So I pulled my shorts up and took the next step down with my left foot. The edge of my shorts still got wet. I leaned over and now the left half of my shirt was wet, but I got 'em!!! The little buggers did not get away. SO I climbed out and looked and then I notice, one had swam to the other side. I dried off, walk out of that side, went to the other side, unlocked the door, climbed the steps and he was floating towards the other side and was almost to the middle...... so back into the water I went... LEANED WAY OUT! Foot started to slide, but swiped him up in the net, and didn't get any wetter.... WHOA!!!! Actually... it wasn't too bad, and I came home afterwards, but it was necessary since we are Baptizing 4 people on Sunday!!!! I won't mind if I have to get a snorkel and wet suit and clean the baptistry for the rest of the year as long as God keeps leading new people to church and they keep accepting HIM as their Savior. Can I get an AMEN??? AAAAAAMMMMMEEEENNNN!
It has come to my attention that I haven't lost my temper but once this week.... That is a major accomplishment, and I haven't been angry but once this week... same day. I know that is because I've given my life to GOD.
GOD has answered two of my prayers this week, so if you doubt that GOD hears you, DON'T. However you have to be willing to listen and to do what HE asks you to do, when you give your life to GOD. I know this is a bunch of rambling, but my mind has been running 100mph today, even when I took a little nap, I dreamed in super fast speed. HAHA! Glad there wasn't any policemen in my dream... I might have a ticket!! LOL.
Recovery meeting was awesome last night and my husband, Norman (For those who don't know his name) stood in front of the group again and shared, and made a joke, which I was part of... it was quite funny! He told the group that anyone that needed to talk, could call the house and it didn't matter if it was 4 am. He said, "My wife will answer the phone," and there was a 1000 laughs (okay so I exaggerate a little). Then he said, "No really she always hears the phone and will answer and wake me up. It's true. I'm not a very deep sleeper.
What prayers did GOD answer for me this week? I will share one. Since I quit working in corporate America, I haven't had any friends. Oh I have email buddies, and people I talk to on Face book, but no one to call and say let's go to sonic, or want to go to the movies or anything like that. So I've been praying that someone would come along. Some one that was a christian, that shared the same beliefs, and that it would just seem inevitable that we were going to be friends. Well it happened. A young lady from church that I see almost every day asked me to become her prayer partner and we just hit it off! We've been talking and sharing for awhile. She is sooooo sweet!!!!! Anyway, she was the answer to my prayer. She is a great friend and I know we are going to be good friends for a long time.
So let's see oh yeah, I was cleaning the auditorium today. The baptistry has been filled going on three weeks now. On Thursday, I went over and threw some bleach in it to kill anything growing (Just kidding), but we do have a cricket problem right now. The little buggers are every where. So today after I dusted the auditorium I went up into the baptistry to dip out crickets. Well I got what I could reach by standing on the very top, no water. However, some of the little buggers were in the middle. So being a good Baptist, I took off my flip flips and walked down the first couple of steps. Water just above my ankles and I was able to get a couple more. However, the pump kicked on, and they started swirling out to the middle. Now I wear shorts and a T-shirt to clean in, but I really didn't want to go swimming in the Baptistry. So I took one more step down, water to my knees now and was able to get a couple more. However, then I guess I swirled the water to much because on the filter, a couple that were stuck fell off. And went to the bottom. As I stood there looking at the crickets, and the depth of the water, I realized that there was no way to get the rest without getting a little wet. So I pulled my shorts up and took the next step down with my left foot. The edge of my shorts still got wet. I leaned over and now the left half of my shirt was wet, but I got 'em!!! The little buggers did not get away. SO I climbed out and looked and then I notice, one had swam to the other side. I dried off, walk out of that side, went to the other side, unlocked the door, climbed the steps and he was floating towards the other side and was almost to the middle...... so back into the water I went... LEANED WAY OUT! Foot started to slide, but swiped him up in the net, and didn't get any wetter.... WHOA!!!! Actually... it wasn't too bad, and I came home afterwards, but it was necessary since we are Baptizing 4 people on Sunday!!!! I won't mind if I have to get a snorkel and wet suit and clean the baptistry for the rest of the year as long as God keeps leading new people to church and they keep accepting HIM as their Savior. Can I get an AMEN??? AAAAAAMMMMMEEEENNNN!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Never Give Up
I was born in 1962 and as I grew up I never once thought I wouldn’t get married. As a child I had a weight problem, and it never really went away nor has it gone away today. I graduated from high school, and got a job. I went to a vocational school and took a job in Abilene, Texas. It was awesome! I turned 21 years old out there and although, I didn’t weigh any more than I do now, I felt like I was obese. I developed an eating disorder of sorts. It’s not something I’m proud of and I probably should have gotten professional help when I returned home to the Dallas area. I didn’t… and I’m not sure anyone even realized that it was an eating disorder. I mean everyone knew what anorexia was then, but it wasn’t something you talked about and I wasn’t anorexic. I starved myself, but I didn’t make myself throw up, not then anyway. I might have eaten one meal a day but most of the time I drank Coca Cola. I can truthfully say I’m a Coke addict, but it’s legal.
As time went by, I made friends and when we weren’t working, we were out drinking. It was also during this time, that I had female health issues and at one point was pretty much told I would not be able to have a child. Now they didn’t say I couldn’t get pregnant, just that I would not be able to have a child. That is another story in itself. Let’s just suffice it to say that I have a 24 year old daughter and God does work miracles.
Time to fast forward by the time I hit 35, I had been in several relationships, but nothing that felt right but something did happen that changed my life. I was obese by this time. My body fat was over 51%, I weighed in excess of 300 lbs and I couldn’t get in the floor and get up by myself. I made a decision that I have to live with for the rest of my life and that is okay, but it is in danger of being totally messed up. Again, that is another story or another chapter. In 2004, my insurance company agreed to pay for a gastric bypass. I found a hospital and we went through all the preliminary requirements and on October 23, 2003, I got a new stomach and a new beginning. As of today, I’ve lost 140 pounds because of this life changing surgery and I have no regrets. It gave me confidence, and a new attitude and I no longer thought of myself as overweight or ugly. Still I was unable to find the right person to spend the rest of my life with. I joined dating services, met people through friends, but nothing seemed to be right.
By now I’m over the 40 year mark I had pretty much given up hope of meeting the right person, so I thought I had to settle for something less than what I deserve. I met a man 25+ years my senior. We seemed to hit it off and being the trusting person I was, I became involved. I even went as far as to fly to Chino Valley, AZ and bring him and his mother back. Have you ever had that feeling in the pit of your stomach that you just need to turn around and walk away? I should have gotten right back on a plane and flown back to Texas. But what if this was my only chance to be married? Maybe I was just tired and what I was feeling was wrong? Always listen to your gut feeling or intuition or whatever you want to call it. He was a parasite. He did give me an engagement ring on Valentine’s Day in 2005. I promptly gave it back to him and told him to move a week before my birthday. I continued to lose weight from the surgery, but developed a binge purge kind of thing. The first sign of feeling too full and I would make myself go throw up. (This is not a good thing). Okay so let’s skip a little. I joined match.com but couldn’t break not seeing the parasite. I tried everything and then eventually, I told him, that it was killing me and that I couldn’t live sneaking around behind my family to see him. I knew it wasn’t right anyway, but I didn’t want to be alone. Okay so back to match.com. Up until July of 2005, when I was still seeing the parasite, I had gone out on a few dates, nothing serious. The only that happened with anyone serious during this time, was a wonderful man named Wayne, who I happened to be relocating for his company. We had wonderful conversations and had two majorly enjoyable dates. It was not meant to be though.
Okay In July of 2005, I went to Shreveport with a friend gambling one night, and on the way home, I actually had to let her drive. I couldn’t stay awake. It was the next few days that I got sick. I lost 12 pounds in two days, and almost passed out. I continually threw up. I had to go to the emergency room, but no one, not even, my doctor figured out what was wrong. A friend of mine finally suggested that it sounded like Mono. So I asked my doctor to test me and sure enough it was mono. Needless to say, the parasite gave it to me, but swears he didn’t have it. I had to contract it from somewhere. My doctor said that my case was severe enough that it had to be contracted. It took awhile and I actually wound up in the emergency room a second time from dehydration, before I began to bounce back. My membership with match.com was getting close to expiring and I had decided to cancel it at the end of the month. It was November now and winter was approaching and I would be alone during the holidays once again.
What happened next should never have happened. I kept asking God to send me someone. I actually asked him in April of 2001 for a husband and just so you know God does answer prayers but in His time, not ours. So let me get to the rest of the story. On November the 3rd of 2005, I received an email from match.com from a person who went by East Texas Hillbilly; however it came directly to my personal email with EarthLink. You see there is a built in security with email, that if I don’t know the person I have to approve them as an email address. They actually have to send a message to ask to email me. For some strange reason, he got the email from EarthLink and it actually displayed my email address and so he was able to bypass the security. It should never have happened, but I’m glad it did. We started exchanging emails and it was days of constant emails before I would even give him my phone number. He has this wonderful deep voice and all I could do was smile into the phone. I finally agreed to meet him in the afternoon on November 13th at a restaurant called Two Senoritas for coffee or tea or whatever. It’s funny, when I first saw him, I thought or he is not really my type, this will never work, but before our date was over, I was caught. He had already made me feel like the most important person in his world and he was fast becoming the most important person in mine. We seemed to know without a doubt that God had brought us together. The more we talked the more we discovered that we had been playing around in each other’s back yards for years and just didn’t know it.
It just seemed to be right when we were shopping in Wal-Mart one day to buy a set of wedding rings. He hadn’t proposed yet and although we talked about it jokingly, we hadn’t taken that step. We headed home and we stopped at his house to get a few things. This is December 19th 2005. We were all in the house, because my daughter was with us and she and I were playing around with the pool table. She headed towards the bathroom and suddenly, Norman was in front of me on both knees asking me to marry him. I started crying. Why? I mean we had just bought rings, but I hadn’t noticed that he had brought them in with him. My daughter witnessed the whole thing and of course I said yes…. Duh!!! It doesn’t take a sledge hammer for me to realize that God sent him to me.
We were married on March 31st of 2006 and it is hard to believe even today that I am married. God knew when the time was right and sent me the person I needed and sent me to the man who needed me. Yes we have had our problems, mostly because of work related issues and family, but I would never leave him. He was my gift from God and I thank Him every day for my husband.
So I guess my message to all those out there that might read this, never give up hope that God will send the right man to you. He will. It will just be on His time, now yours. Never lose hope or stop dreaming…God Bless.
As time went by, I made friends and when we weren’t working, we were out drinking. It was also during this time, that I had female health issues and at one point was pretty much told I would not be able to have a child. Now they didn’t say I couldn’t get pregnant, just that I would not be able to have a child. That is another story in itself. Let’s just suffice it to say that I have a 24 year old daughter and God does work miracles.
Time to fast forward by the time I hit 35, I had been in several relationships, but nothing that felt right but something did happen that changed my life. I was obese by this time. My body fat was over 51%, I weighed in excess of 300 lbs and I couldn’t get in the floor and get up by myself. I made a decision that I have to live with for the rest of my life and that is okay, but it is in danger of being totally messed up. Again, that is another story or another chapter. In 2004, my insurance company agreed to pay for a gastric bypass. I found a hospital and we went through all the preliminary requirements and on October 23, 2003, I got a new stomach and a new beginning. As of today, I’ve lost 140 pounds because of this life changing surgery and I have no regrets. It gave me confidence, and a new attitude and I no longer thought of myself as overweight or ugly. Still I was unable to find the right person to spend the rest of my life with. I joined dating services, met people through friends, but nothing seemed to be right.
By now I’m over the 40 year mark I had pretty much given up hope of meeting the right person, so I thought I had to settle for something less than what I deserve. I met a man 25+ years my senior. We seemed to hit it off and being the trusting person I was, I became involved. I even went as far as to fly to Chino Valley, AZ and bring him and his mother back. Have you ever had that feeling in the pit of your stomach that you just need to turn around and walk away? I should have gotten right back on a plane and flown back to Texas. But what if this was my only chance to be married? Maybe I was just tired and what I was feeling was wrong? Always listen to your gut feeling or intuition or whatever you want to call it. He was a parasite. He did give me an engagement ring on Valentine’s Day in 2005. I promptly gave it back to him and told him to move a week before my birthday. I continued to lose weight from the surgery, but developed a binge purge kind of thing. The first sign of feeling too full and I would make myself go throw up. (This is not a good thing). Okay so let’s skip a little. I joined match.com but couldn’t break not seeing the parasite. I tried everything and then eventually, I told him, that it was killing me and that I couldn’t live sneaking around behind my family to see him. I knew it wasn’t right anyway, but I didn’t want to be alone. Okay so back to match.com. Up until July of 2005, when I was still seeing the parasite, I had gone out on a few dates, nothing serious. The only that happened with anyone serious during this time, was a wonderful man named Wayne, who I happened to be relocating for his company. We had wonderful conversations and had two majorly enjoyable dates. It was not meant to be though.
Okay In July of 2005, I went to Shreveport with a friend gambling one night, and on the way home, I actually had to let her drive. I couldn’t stay awake. It was the next few days that I got sick. I lost 12 pounds in two days, and almost passed out. I continually threw up. I had to go to the emergency room, but no one, not even, my doctor figured out what was wrong. A friend of mine finally suggested that it sounded like Mono. So I asked my doctor to test me and sure enough it was mono. Needless to say, the parasite gave it to me, but swears he didn’t have it. I had to contract it from somewhere. My doctor said that my case was severe enough that it had to be contracted. It took awhile and I actually wound up in the emergency room a second time from dehydration, before I began to bounce back. My membership with match.com was getting close to expiring and I had decided to cancel it at the end of the month. It was November now and winter was approaching and I would be alone during the holidays once again.
What happened next should never have happened. I kept asking God to send me someone. I actually asked him in April of 2001 for a husband and just so you know God does answer prayers but in His time, not ours. So let me get to the rest of the story. On November the 3rd of 2005, I received an email from match.com from a person who went by East Texas Hillbilly; however it came directly to my personal email with EarthLink. You see there is a built in security with email, that if I don’t know the person I have to approve them as an email address. They actually have to send a message to ask to email me. For some strange reason, he got the email from EarthLink and it actually displayed my email address and so he was able to bypass the security. It should never have happened, but I’m glad it did. We started exchanging emails and it was days of constant emails before I would even give him my phone number. He has this wonderful deep voice and all I could do was smile into the phone. I finally agreed to meet him in the afternoon on November 13th at a restaurant called Two Senoritas for coffee or tea or whatever. It’s funny, when I first saw him, I thought or he is not really my type, this will never work, but before our date was over, I was caught. He had already made me feel like the most important person in his world and he was fast becoming the most important person in mine. We seemed to know without a doubt that God had brought us together. The more we talked the more we discovered that we had been playing around in each other’s back yards for years and just didn’t know it.
It just seemed to be right when we were shopping in Wal-Mart one day to buy a set of wedding rings. He hadn’t proposed yet and although we talked about it jokingly, we hadn’t taken that step. We headed home and we stopped at his house to get a few things. This is December 19th 2005. We were all in the house, because my daughter was with us and she and I were playing around with the pool table. She headed towards the bathroom and suddenly, Norman was in front of me on both knees asking me to marry him. I started crying. Why? I mean we had just bought rings, but I hadn’t noticed that he had brought them in with him. My daughter witnessed the whole thing and of course I said yes…. Duh!!! It doesn’t take a sledge hammer for me to realize that God sent him to me.
We were married on March 31st of 2006 and it is hard to believe even today that I am married. God knew when the time was right and sent me the person I needed and sent me to the man who needed me. Yes we have had our problems, mostly because of work related issues and family, but I would never leave him. He was my gift from God and I thank Him every day for my husband.
So I guess my message to all those out there that might read this, never give up hope that God will send the right man to you. He will. It will just be on His time, now yours. Never lose hope or stop dreaming…God Bless.
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