So Many Thoughts, Not Enough Space or Time

Okay so I could sleep late this morning and I woke up before four am.  I finally got up at five something and pushed the button on the coffee pot.  Why?  Who knows why I woke up so early, but I dreamed a lot last night.  Some of my dream had to do with renewing our vows, but the hymn Tenderly and Softly ( I think that is correct) kept running through my mind.  Of course I am always thinking about how I can increase my income from writing, and I'm not talking about writing content.  I can do that and I'm okay with that, but I have an extremely hard time writing about things I have no interest in or care about.  So I know that just writing content is never going to be enough income.  I love writing stories, books, poems (although I'm not as good at poems) and just little articles or pages dealing with life.  I have writing posted on the website called triond and you make money off of it for people viewing or reading or whatever you want to call it.  I've received a notice today that I made a whole .51 cents on the site this last month.  Okay I know you are laughing, but here's the thing, I've not posted anything new on that site probably in months.  So to make money when I haven't added anything new, means something to me.  I also have articles and stories on http://www.helium.com/ and I have two or three dollars accumulated on that site as well, but you can't get paid from that one unless you have 25.00 or more. 

On Monday of this week, I made a list of things that I wanted to work on this week, and I kind of starting working towards my goal of losing 35 pounds.  By the way, I've lost 4 pounds since the 27th of December, and I'm not really trying, just increasing protein, water intake and the amount I eat, and how often I eat.  Anyway, the list I compiled looked like this:

Triond
Helium
Blogs
Budget - completed, but needs to be changed a little
Math
Caity's Blanket
journal
devotional
Food log
telephone service - completed
vacuum cleaner belts - borrowed my niece's instead
Grant gopher
Vince's stuff - I've tried and I don't think I can accomplish this one.

Things I've done that weren't on that list are as follows:
made dog treats
cleaned the house
did laundry
exercised
new cell phones activated

Today is Thursday and the chances that I will get anything else done on the original list is very slim.  I did start a journal entry this morning and I did make a list of items we still need to pay by the end of January, and that one is in God's hands.  There is a recovery meeting tonight and I'm going to try to go, but... we will just leave it at that.  (Ugh I need to take something out of the freezer for dinner)

I know that God never leaves us and we just have to trust in Him completely.  That was my one and only resolution for the year, To Trust In God and Step out in Faith.  So here it is God.  I know you can sort through it and show me where and how, when, and why, and what. 

May you all have a God Filled and Blessed Day!

Today 12-30-10 Thursday

Okay so I couldn't come up with a title for this blog entry so the above will just have to do.  I've had my blogs open several times today and although I have a lot on my mind, the peace inside me is great, but I couldn't decide what to write. 

I have been thinking back about all the things that have happened this year and still can't quite get my head around some of it.  As I look towards the new year, I know several things I would like to accomplish.  A reader suggested I step out in faith and commit myself to God and He will fulfill my hearts desires and care for me.  I know this is true... but I have been thinking about that ever since I read it.  My hearts desires? 
Do I truly know what those are?  I'm not sure.  I've been doing a lot of research in the bible, talking to my pastor, an evangelist, and the pastor husband of one of my blogging friends.  Two have answered an email I sent and I am waiting for the response from the other, but I am pretty positive, that I will receive the same answer from Pastor Josh as I have from the others.  What am I going to do with the information?  Nothing.  It confirms my beliefs as a Baptist.  I am a Baptist because the doctrine of the Baptist follows closely to the New Testament Church it talks about in the Trail of Blood.  I am secure in what I believe.  Everyone is entitled to believe however they choose.  If you are a child of God, you believe that Jesus Christ was born of a virgin under the law, died for our sins and rose 3 days later and now sits on the right hand of the father.  I await His return with open arms and a heart full of love and the desire to do what He wants of me. 

There are many things I want to do, but most of all I just want to live one day at a time, worship God, teach others and live happily with my husband Norman.  I am going to sit and think about my heart's desires and I am going to right them down.  My husband and I have been discussing doing something to help churches and missions in the state of Texas to help others reach those that are lost.  I know that God will point us in the right direction.

Now for the human side of me, the mortal that I am, I realized this morning that I need to lose at least 30 pounds.  I gained 10 pounds when I met my husband and I was 10 pounds away from my goal weight.  I have gain another 10 pounds in the 5 years we have been together.  So one of my goals for this year and I mean the beginning of this year is to lose all that.  I would like to have that done prior to our Vow renewal ceremony on 4/2/11. 

I guess that is it for now.  May God Bless you all!  Thanks for reading and why not subscribe to one of my blogs.... I try to share the human side of me, the dog lover in me, the Christian me, and the writer me.  I think you will probably find something you like in one of them. 

Good night!