For the last few days I've been writing articles or thoughts or something anyway and I'm just putting them in a folder. Some will hurt people, some will make people wonder, and some might make people go away. I'm not sure. I'm not sleeping so good these days, too many worries, and yes before you ask, I've handed them to God several times. It's just that the world keeps putting them back on top instead of at the bottom of the cross. Oh! Wait! I guess that is me and not the world, but the world does cause me to pick them back up. My faith is strong but not strong enough. So I write and write. Hoping that one of these days I will get it all out and down on paper and the world will look better from the ink drippings on my page.
Some times each dot of ink is almost like a tear falling softly down. Some times it is a raindrop, huge and with force blowing against the pane of my heart. Some times the dot of ink is the thunder and lightening and I'm enjoying it as it splashes across the page. My writings allow me to feel and I don't always feel which is one of the things I wrote about today, this morning. It is easy for me to throw up a wall and block people out of my life, some times forcing those I love to stand back for awhile until I'm ready to feel again. I'm not sure if that makes me heartless or not. Some times, I don't feel like I have a heart or that I am truly capable of real feelings. I some times don't know who I really am deep down. Who am I as a person? What am I as a person? Maybe one day I will discover that and maybe then I can share it with everyone.
L
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Tuesday, April 19, 2011
Today Marks the End of First Session
Today marks the end of the first 7.5 weeks of school. It has been an awesome experience and I can't wait to start the next session. I've already talked to Amy, my Academic Adviser about next semester and have already applied for financial aid to go with my pell grant. My next session I only have one class or course. It is called Comm 150, which is Research Strategies for a Digital age plus.
I have also started working with Career Services, Jodi, is my contact and she is helping to redo my resume, gave me some job search sites and will help me the most that she can with job placement. It is a little different because I am not on campus, but she is still there for assistance and I plan to take advantage of everything the school has to offer.
On a more personal level, I am really tired the last few days and have not felt up to par, but I'm okay. My husband is working as many small jobs as possible so that we can make ends meet. We are not behind on anything but one bill. Groceries are not a concern because our freezer is well stocked. We are sticking to our budget and it is working well. I will however, be eternally grateful when I can get a job with my new schooling.
I wish you all a glorious and God filled day. I've already talked to Him a couple of times and will probably do so more as the day goes by. Especially until the AC guy gets here.
Love, L
I have also started working with Career Services, Jodi, is my contact and she is helping to redo my resume, gave me some job search sites and will help me the most that she can with job placement. It is a little different because I am not on campus, but she is still there for assistance and I plan to take advantage of everything the school has to offer.
On a more personal level, I am really tired the last few days and have not felt up to par, but I'm okay. My husband is working as many small jobs as possible so that we can make ends meet. We are not behind on anything but one bill. Groceries are not a concern because our freezer is well stocked. We are sticking to our budget and it is working well. I will however, be eternally grateful when I can get a job with my new schooling.
I wish you all a glorious and God filled day. I've already talked to Him a couple of times and will probably do so more as the day goes by. Especially until the AC guy gets here.
Love, L
Monday, April 11, 2011
Where Will We Go
After talking with my academic advisor last week, I really started thinking about where I would find a job with my new degree. Career Services has been in contact and I have told them we would be interested in a position with a Christian based company, church or school, for starters, anywhere in the state of Texas. That leaves a very open and wide field.
My goal, our goal is to still have a few acres with a house and my animals. So even if I do wind up working in a city of more than 1500 people, I will still live far enough out to have those things. I think I might like going back to west Texas. I loved living in Abilene and working there. That would put us at least 4.5 hours from his family and probably the same distance from my Mom.
I told my daughter all of this and she is excited for us. We are excited that this year will be more fruitful!
Have a God Filled and Blessed Day!
Love, L
My goal, our goal is to still have a few acres with a house and my animals. So even if I do wind up working in a city of more than 1500 people, I will still live far enough out to have those things. I think I might like going back to west Texas. I loved living in Abilene and working there. That would put us at least 4.5 hours from his family and probably the same distance from my Mom.
I told my daughter all of this and she is excited for us. We are excited that this year will be more fruitful!
Have a God Filled and Blessed Day!
Love, L
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Next Semester
I AM SO PUMPED!!!!!
I had my call with my academic advisor this morning, and I was very nervous before the call, but felt so much better about things after I talked to her. I am only considered part time this session. I have one class next session, so I will still be spending about 3 hours or so a day on the computer for school. However, it is one class instead of two. FYE is not considered a full time course and as such should only take about 2 hours a week to do what is necessary for the class.
So next semester, because I want to get my degree finished as quick as possible, I'm going 3/4 time. That means I will have two full classes for the first 7.5 weeks, and one the following session or the last 7.5 weeks. I was also approved for a Pell grant this time, and will get student loans for what that does not cover. Registration for the next semester is the end of April first of May, and then next semester starts on June 22.
It was funny sort of, Amy Stokes, my academic advisor asked how it was going. I told her all was okay, but I still had some of the fear factor that I would be able to accomplish my goal. She asked if it was my classes or did I not understand something. I told her that if you get right down to the crux of the problem, I felt it was my age. I told her I felt like I was the oldest in the class. She laughed and said not at all. That the majority of the classes online are professionals in jobs or people that are returning for degrees or changing professions. She said very few online students are those right out of high school. That made me feel a lot better.
So I have a small break during session 1 and 2, but I'm going to use it to read ahead in my book, and to review math. I do have one more math class but it probably will not be until 3rd semester, which starts in October. Thank God I have a great support group of family and friends. Otherwise I probably would still be wobbling on whether or not to do this! I'm going to try to get my degree as quickly as possible. So please keep supporting me and praying for me.
Love, L
I had my call with my academic advisor this morning, and I was very nervous before the call, but felt so much better about things after I talked to her. I am only considered part time this session. I have one class next session, so I will still be spending about 3 hours or so a day on the computer for school. However, it is one class instead of two. FYE is not considered a full time course and as such should only take about 2 hours a week to do what is necessary for the class.
So next semester, because I want to get my degree finished as quick as possible, I'm going 3/4 time. That means I will have two full classes for the first 7.5 weeks, and one the following session or the last 7.5 weeks. I was also approved for a Pell grant this time, and will get student loans for what that does not cover. Registration for the next semester is the end of April first of May, and then next semester starts on June 22.
It was funny sort of, Amy Stokes, my academic advisor asked how it was going. I told her all was okay, but I still had some of the fear factor that I would be able to accomplish my goal. She asked if it was my classes or did I not understand something. I told her that if you get right down to the crux of the problem, I felt it was my age. I told her I felt like I was the oldest in the class. She laughed and said not at all. That the majority of the classes online are professionals in jobs or people that are returning for degrees or changing professions. She said very few online students are those right out of high school. That made me feel a lot better.
So I have a small break during session 1 and 2, but I'm going to use it to read ahead in my book, and to review math. I do have one more math class but it probably will not be until 3rd semester, which starts in October. Thank God I have a great support group of family and friends. Otherwise I probably would still be wobbling on whether or not to do this! I'm going to try to get my degree as quickly as possible. So please keep supporting me and praying for me.
Love, L
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Five Years and Counting
It has been awhile since I've written on my blogs, not because I didn't have anything to say, but because life has been so busy. Most of you have read where I had planned to return to school and I did as a part time student. I absolutely love it! I'm considering full time this semester, however, the fear factor is there that I won't be able to handle four classes. This I know though, God will see me through. I had a math class for the first 7.5 weeks of this semester and I was able to finish it in 14 days, and I'm pretty sure I have an A in the class. I'm still participating in the discussions and I'm reviewing math so I can stay up on the practices I've learned.
In this last week, I celebrated my 49th birthday and my 5th wedding anniversary. We didn't do anything really spectacular and for our anniversary, I got contacts and he got new glasses. My eyes don't focus together so I'm actually only wearing one contact lens. I go back on the 12th to figure out if this is going to work, or what kind of compromise I will have to make in order to see.
We are still planning on renewing our vows on the 12th of November. We aren't planning on anything fancy and we still haven't decided on whether or not we want to write our vows or just have them redone. It is a work in progress.
My daughter and I have been spending more time together and it means the world to me. I love that we live this close to each other. I know that she wants to move from Emory, and I know that we will follow to be pretty close to where ever it is that they wind up. So in the meantime, we have devised a new budget, and we are going to start putting some money back into the savings as much as possible. We have two more big items before we can save a lot, like dental appointments, and computers, but we will get there.
How has life been for you in the last two weeks? Anything exciting going on in your life? Please leave a comment.
Love, L
In this last week, I celebrated my 49th birthday and my 5th wedding anniversary. We didn't do anything really spectacular and for our anniversary, I got contacts and he got new glasses. My eyes don't focus together so I'm actually only wearing one contact lens. I go back on the 12th to figure out if this is going to work, or what kind of compromise I will have to make in order to see.
We are still planning on renewing our vows on the 12th of November. We aren't planning on anything fancy and we still haven't decided on whether or not we want to write our vows or just have them redone. It is a work in progress.
My daughter and I have been spending more time together and it means the world to me. I love that we live this close to each other. I know that she wants to move from Emory, and I know that we will follow to be pretty close to where ever it is that they wind up. So in the meantime, we have devised a new budget, and we are going to start putting some money back into the savings as much as possible. We have two more big items before we can save a lot, like dental appointments, and computers, but we will get there.
How has life been for you in the last two weeks? Anything exciting going on in your life? Please leave a comment.
Love, L
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