Life In A Bottle

The economy is effecting everyone in all walks of life.  No one is immune. Even if you think you are not affected, you are because if you are buying groceries, gas, or paying bills, you are affected.  People are losing homes, cars, and their sanity because of the economy.  This week I have felt like I'm walking around in a bottle with no air and no opening to come out from under the weight of the economy. 

My husband is a general contractor and we are going on a month with no new jobs, no phone calls to amount to anything and estimates that no one can make a decision on.  I work part-time at our church as custodian.  I have been job searching for the last two to three weeks, applying for job after job after job.  My husband has been a general contractor for about 20 years and so being an "employee" is not a word that has been in my husband's vocabulary in a long time, but that is going to have to change. 

Life sometimes hands you circumstances and it seems that no matter how hard you try to work or fix the issue, there is no answer.  That is the way our life is at this moment.  I'm not sure what the future holds for us at this moment.  I'm not even sure if we will have a place to live or a car to drive in another week.  I do know this and that is God will see us through this and more.

We have not given up on looking for jobs.  I think I may even have one, but by the time I receive a paycheck this are going to be pass the serious and arriving at the edge of "where do we go".  I know that probably makes no sense, but stress levels in our house are as high as the Mississippi river in some areas along it's banks right now.  I've had several anxiety attacks in the last two weeks, bad enough that I thought I was having a heart attack.  Pain so severe that my only thought was I won't see my husband's face before I die and I don't know if I said I love you or not today. 

I need someone to take the cap off of this bottle and let in a breath of  fresh air.  We are doing the best we can, and we are praying daily for God's intervention.  I guess the reason I'm writing this, is to say to others who are facing the effects of the economy, don't give up.  Have faith and take it all to God.  I know He is the only way we are going to survive this.  God Bless!

Love L