I have shared a lot on my blog over the last month. I've shared our anxiety of not having work, not being able to pay bills and worry over if we were going to have a place to live. I've filled out job application after job application and had no calls. However, after much prayer and thanking God for all the things He does for us, I received a job offer from my old company sort of. I start work for them on Thursday, the 16th as a contract or temporary employee. It is for a group move and it is a two hour drive for me to go to work and a two hour drive for me to get home. It's okay though! I know it is temporary and this will give my husband time to find a regular job, not one that depends on good weather and a good economy. He and I are both going to try to work for awhile at regular jobs and get caught up, paid off, and buy us a permanent place to live.
I changed my school schedule to accommodate my working full time. Until we get to where we don't need me to work full time, I will only go to school part time. Yes it will take longer for me to get my degree, but it is okay and will pay off in the long run. I'm also taking a free basic bookkeeping class that hopefully will brush up my knowledge enough that I can get something in an accounting department or for a company, doing basic bookkeeping once the full time work is gone in Addison. Either way, I know that God heard our pleas and has answered one of our many prayers.
Life is going to be a little different and it will take some adjusting, but what we have received from God and what we are able to do is beyond what we had hoped. So although we aren't out of the woods, we can see the clearing and God is smiling upon us and blessing us constantly. Thank you God. Thank you for our friends, family and your Church. We couldn't have made it the last two weeks without any of it and especially without you.
Love, L
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Tuesday, June 14, 2011
Friday, February 25, 2011
Just Some General Things and Updates
Okay so its Friday and it has been a very busy week, so I'm glad the work week is over. Norman has two jobs going right now so he has been busy as well. This is the first week in a while that he has actually worked five days in a row. Both of us are still fighting allergies or something so that one or both of us has sinus issues everyday.
School starts on Wednesday, March 2nd, at noon EST. I have to keep reminding myself that school is on EST and not CST for the purposes of completing assignments and turning in work. I'm excited and scared. Now I just want to get started and to see if I can actually handle school. We have to get a new computer. Mine, that is now Norman's is not going to cut it for the 2nd half of the first semester, but they said it would get me through the first half (7.5 weeks). So we are starting to look. The best we have found so far is about $550.00 not counting shipping. So I'm hoping that between the two jobs, we will be able to purchase me a new computer and take the other desktop in and have to cleaned up. He got a virus, and although we have cleaned it, we are not sure all is working properly.
We have cancelled Renewing our vows until later in the year. We can't afford to do the ceremony the way I want to do it, and buy the computer. That's okay too! I know God is working tremendously in our lives right now and we are slowly seeing some light at the end of the tunnel... (and it's not a train).
I guess that catches us up to where our lives are currently heading. I know that this is what is suppose to happen with school and all because a very close friend of the family told me that if it was meant to be, God would make sure it all happened, or there would be obstacles to big to overcome. She was right! God bless you Ashley Lenore!
May you all have a God Filled and Blessed day!
L
School starts on Wednesday, March 2nd, at noon EST. I have to keep reminding myself that school is on EST and not CST for the purposes of completing assignments and turning in work. I'm excited and scared. Now I just want to get started and to see if I can actually handle school. We have to get a new computer. Mine, that is now Norman's is not going to cut it for the 2nd half of the first semester, but they said it would get me through the first half (7.5 weeks). So we are starting to look. The best we have found so far is about $550.00 not counting shipping. So I'm hoping that between the two jobs, we will be able to purchase me a new computer and take the other desktop in and have to cleaned up. He got a virus, and although we have cleaned it, we are not sure all is working properly.
We have cancelled Renewing our vows until later in the year. We can't afford to do the ceremony the way I want to do it, and buy the computer. That's okay too! I know God is working tremendously in our lives right now and we are slowly seeing some light at the end of the tunnel... (and it's not a train).
I guess that catches us up to where our lives are currently heading. I know that this is what is suppose to happen with school and all because a very close friend of the family told me that if it was meant to be, God would make sure it all happened, or there would be obstacles to big to overcome. She was right! God bless you Ashley Lenore!
May you all have a God Filled and Blessed day!
L
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
A Special Friend
I have many female friends that I talk to every now and then. I have a couple that I stay in close contact with and even though we might not talk on the phone for weeks, or months, it is always like we just saw each other and have great conversations.
One of my friends, whom I have known for many years now, sent me an email today and it was just what I needed. She is a very sweet, special lady, and always has a kind word and is ready to pray for me or anyone else whenever it is needed.
We are not of the same religious beliefs but that has never been a problem for us. We talk about our religion and I try to understand hers, and she understands mine. I'm never afraid to talk to her about Jesus or God.
We worked together for years and she has always been there in time of family emergencies like when my grandfather was in and out of the hospital and passed away, when my grandmother died, and she was that at my dad's memorial service after he passed away.
She came to my wedding shower, and my wedding and it meant a great deal to me. She is someone I have lots of memories of and with, and we both shared a special place for Mexican food when we worked in Las Colinas.
So This is a special blog for my very special friend, "Betty Cookie Kabakoff".
Thanks!
Love ya,
Laura
One of my friends, whom I have known for many years now, sent me an email today and it was just what I needed. She is a very sweet, special lady, and always has a kind word and is ready to pray for me or anyone else whenever it is needed.
We are not of the same religious beliefs but that has never been a problem for us. We talk about our religion and I try to understand hers, and she understands mine. I'm never afraid to talk to her about Jesus or God.
We worked together for years and she has always been there in time of family emergencies like when my grandfather was in and out of the hospital and passed away, when my grandmother died, and she was that at my dad's memorial service after he passed away.
She came to my wedding shower, and my wedding and it meant a great deal to me. She is someone I have lots of memories of and with, and we both shared a special place for Mexican food when we worked in Las Colinas.
So This is a special blog for my very special friend, "Betty Cookie Kabakoff".
Thanks!
Love ya,
Laura
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Today 12-30-10 Thursday
Okay so I couldn't come up with a title for this blog entry so the above will just have to do. I've had my blogs open several times today and although I have a lot on my mind, the peace inside me is great, but I couldn't decide what to write.
I have been thinking back about all the things that have happened this year and still can't quite get my head around some of it. As I look towards the new year, I know several things I would like to accomplish. A reader suggested I step out in faith and commit myself to God and He will fulfill my hearts desires and care for me. I know this is true... but I have been thinking about that ever since I read it. My hearts desires?
Do I truly know what those are? I'm not sure. I've been doing a lot of research in the bible, talking to my pastor, an evangelist, and the pastor husband of one of my blogging friends. Two have answered an email I sent and I am waiting for the response from the other, but I am pretty positive, that I will receive the same answer from Pastor Josh as I have from the others. What am I going to do with the information? Nothing. It confirms my beliefs as a Baptist. I am a Baptist because the doctrine of the Baptist follows closely to the New Testament Church it talks about in the Trail of Blood. I am secure in what I believe. Everyone is entitled to believe however they choose. If you are a child of God, you believe that Jesus Christ was born of a virgin under the law, died for our sins and rose 3 days later and now sits on the right hand of the father. I await His return with open arms and a heart full of love and the desire to do what He wants of me.
There are many things I want to do, but most of all I just want to live one day at a time, worship God, teach others and live happily with my husband Norman. I am going to sit and think about my heart's desires and I am going to right them down. My husband and I have been discussing doing something to help churches and missions in the state of Texas to help others reach those that are lost. I know that God will point us in the right direction.
Now for the human side of me, the mortal that I am, I realized this morning that I need to lose at least 30 pounds. I gained 10 pounds when I met my husband and I was 10 pounds away from my goal weight. I have gain another 10 pounds in the 5 years we have been together. So one of my goals for this year and I mean the beginning of this year is to lose all that. I would like to have that done prior to our Vow renewal ceremony on 4/2/11.
I guess that is it for now. May God Bless you all! Thanks for reading and why not subscribe to one of my blogs.... I try to share the human side of me, the dog lover in me, the Christian me, and the writer me. I think you will probably find something you like in one of them.
Good night!
I have been thinking back about all the things that have happened this year and still can't quite get my head around some of it. As I look towards the new year, I know several things I would like to accomplish. A reader suggested I step out in faith and commit myself to God and He will fulfill my hearts desires and care for me. I know this is true... but I have been thinking about that ever since I read it. My hearts desires?
Do I truly know what those are? I'm not sure. I've been doing a lot of research in the bible, talking to my pastor, an evangelist, and the pastor husband of one of my blogging friends. Two have answered an email I sent and I am waiting for the response from the other, but I am pretty positive, that I will receive the same answer from Pastor Josh as I have from the others. What am I going to do with the information? Nothing. It confirms my beliefs as a Baptist. I am a Baptist because the doctrine of the Baptist follows closely to the New Testament Church it talks about in the Trail of Blood. I am secure in what I believe. Everyone is entitled to believe however they choose. If you are a child of God, you believe that Jesus Christ was born of a virgin under the law, died for our sins and rose 3 days later and now sits on the right hand of the father. I await His return with open arms and a heart full of love and the desire to do what He wants of me.
There are many things I want to do, but most of all I just want to live one day at a time, worship God, teach others and live happily with my husband Norman. I am going to sit and think about my heart's desires and I am going to right them down. My husband and I have been discussing doing something to help churches and missions in the state of Texas to help others reach those that are lost. I know that God will point us in the right direction.
Now for the human side of me, the mortal that I am, I realized this morning that I need to lose at least 30 pounds. I gained 10 pounds when I met my husband and I was 10 pounds away from my goal weight. I have gain another 10 pounds in the 5 years we have been together. So one of my goals for this year and I mean the beginning of this year is to lose all that. I would like to have that done prior to our Vow renewal ceremony on 4/2/11.
I guess that is it for now. May God Bless you all! Thanks for reading and why not subscribe to one of my blogs.... I try to share the human side of me, the dog lover in me, the Christian me, and the writer me. I think you will probably find something you like in one of them.
Good night!
Saturday, December 18, 2010
A Driving Need
I am looking forward to the things that are in store for us next year. I'm looking forward to a house in a new town, making new friends, and just living our life together. I'm looking forward to having grandchildren. I'm looking forward to having beagles again. However, with everything I'm looking forward to I have a driving need to complete unfinished things and get rid of it before we move.
What things you might ask? Well I have at least 5 story lines at different levels that I want to finish. I have three books, a short story, and a collection of thoughts that I would like to see get typed and finished and hopefully published. I have several craft things that I would like to get finished and put away and in some cases give away to friends.
I am also taking intro to algebra which I would like to get finished in January and I want to start pre-calculus and get it finished in no more than three months. If I am able to get that accomplished, then I can enroll in school and start getting my teaching degree.
It sounds like a lot, but I do know that I can get this accomplished. I just have to stay focused and rely on God to give me the energy and strength to get this all done. I like having things completed and put away. I like it when we are able to close a chapter, and start a new one and that is what I feel like we are doing. Closing the old chapter. Starting the new chapter. I know it will be difficult for us, but those that are close to us are already talking about coming to visit. We will have room for a guest or two in the new house. Everyone will be welcome that wants to come visit. We will still make the trips for family reunions and Christmas Day with his family. The rest of the year will be in God's hands and so will our lives.
God Bless you all! Love, L
What things you might ask? Well I have at least 5 story lines at different levels that I want to finish. I have three books, a short story, and a collection of thoughts that I would like to see get typed and finished and hopefully published. I have several craft things that I would like to get finished and put away and in some cases give away to friends.
I am also taking intro to algebra which I would like to get finished in January and I want to start pre-calculus and get it finished in no more than three months. If I am able to get that accomplished, then I can enroll in school and start getting my teaching degree.
It sounds like a lot, but I do know that I can get this accomplished. I just have to stay focused and rely on God to give me the energy and strength to get this all done. I like having things completed and put away. I like it when we are able to close a chapter, and start a new one and that is what I feel like we are doing. Closing the old chapter. Starting the new chapter. I know it will be difficult for us, but those that are close to us are already talking about coming to visit. We will have room for a guest or two in the new house. Everyone will be welcome that wants to come visit. We will still make the trips for family reunions and Christmas Day with his family. The rest of the year will be in God's hands and so will our lives.
God Bless you all! Love, L
Saturday, December 11, 2010
A Couple of Thoughts I wanted to Share
First Thought
My Mom was down here this last week and I got to visit and have coffee with her. I really miss that! Hopefully in the next year I will be where I can do that on a regular basis. My Mom, Julia or Jude, as she has been known most of her life, stayed with my daughter Caity. That is my daughter's nickname. Her full name is Lauren Brianna Caitlyn Shipley Woods. She will get upset when she reads this because if i call her Caitlyn, she will tell me that is not her name, but it is because that is what I had put on her birth certificate.
Okay so I went off on a tangent, but I'm back. Anyway, we are going to Denton on Christmas Eve to be with my family. We drew names this year between the adults except for my mom. That way, we buy for one person, plus our kids, and then of course my mom. I wasn't sure I like the idea at first, but it works good and thank God because we cannot afford to buy gifts for everyone nor do I have time to make gifts for everyone, although I am trying, and I don't have to feel guilty for not being able to get family gifts.
I'm have been married for almost five years and I'm not sure what the Christmas present program is at my in laws. We have been trying to buy for my Mother in law and Step Father in law, and then we were buying for his siblings, and his kids. That was not possible last year, nor will it be this year. Parents are bought for no matter what because without them, there would be no us. So I am trying to decide what to get our parents. I have a few thought, but have not fully decided. I still have a couple of weeks, right????
Second Thought
My favorite things in life are animals, writing, and teaching. My goal for this coming year is to do all of that and I think it is definitely foreseeable. My sister, Ann or Julia, or I use to call her Sissy, but she made me stop after I started to school, is about to see her dream come true. You can read about it at http://www.rememberwhenranch.com/. She has a place for Norman and I if we want it. I do without a doubt. We will have a house of our own, and work if we want it. I know this is a good step for us. We will have to move to Gunter, Texas, but I will be close to my Mom, and a lot closer to my daughter and son in law who are moving to Keller or that general area. Although my husband has said he will move, I feel like he is holding back. We love each other and I just want us to be happy, not stressed over money or work. He can work on the ranch there or he can continue to do siding if he wants. But it would be a place where we don't have to worry about paying rent, or utilities or buying groceries or having gas money. I have been praying for God to show us the direction we need to go, and I think this is it. Now I need to pray that He will show my husband as well. God Bless you all
My Mom was down here this last week and I got to visit and have coffee with her. I really miss that! Hopefully in the next year I will be where I can do that on a regular basis. My Mom, Julia or Jude, as she has been known most of her life, stayed with my daughter Caity. That is my daughter's nickname. Her full name is Lauren Brianna Caitlyn Shipley Woods. She will get upset when she reads this because if i call her Caitlyn, she will tell me that is not her name, but it is because that is what I had put on her birth certificate.
Okay so I went off on a tangent, but I'm back. Anyway, we are going to Denton on Christmas Eve to be with my family. We drew names this year between the adults except for my mom. That way, we buy for one person, plus our kids, and then of course my mom. I wasn't sure I like the idea at first, but it works good and thank God because we cannot afford to buy gifts for everyone nor do I have time to make gifts for everyone, although I am trying, and I don't have to feel guilty for not being able to get family gifts.
I'm have been married for almost five years and I'm not sure what the Christmas present program is at my in laws. We have been trying to buy for my Mother in law and Step Father in law, and then we were buying for his siblings, and his kids. That was not possible last year, nor will it be this year. Parents are bought for no matter what because without them, there would be no us. So I am trying to decide what to get our parents. I have a few thought, but have not fully decided. I still have a couple of weeks, right????
Second Thought
My favorite things in life are animals, writing, and teaching. My goal for this coming year is to do all of that and I think it is definitely foreseeable. My sister, Ann or Julia, or I use to call her Sissy, but she made me stop after I started to school, is about to see her dream come true. You can read about it at http://www.rememberwhenranch.com/. She has a place for Norman and I if we want it. I do without a doubt. We will have a house of our own, and work if we want it. I know this is a good step for us. We will have to move to Gunter, Texas, but I will be close to my Mom, and a lot closer to my daughter and son in law who are moving to Keller or that general area. Although my husband has said he will move, I feel like he is holding back. We love each other and I just want us to be happy, not stressed over money or work. He can work on the ranch there or he can continue to do siding if he wants. But it would be a place where we don't have to worry about paying rent, or utilities or buying groceries or having gas money. I have been praying for God to show us the direction we need to go, and I think this is it. Now I need to pray that He will show my husband as well. God Bless you all
Monday, December 6, 2010
What A Good Weekend!!!
Okay so when I came home from work on Friday I was extremely tired! It seems I constantly run just trying to get things made, sold, written and cleaned just to make a few dollars. I didn't write any on Friday, mostly because I was tired, but also because it is hard to write when I can't concentrate, and my concentration on Friday was definitely gone.
As we prepared to go to bed on Friday night, I looked at my husband and said, "I need you to be totally honest with me." He looked at me and I asked, "Do you want to move or not?" He said, "Yes that is okay, we can move up that direction." Not his exact words, but close. I felt much better as we went to bed.
Saturday as we sat at the computers, he was reading his newspapers, while I answered emails, and caught up the check book, went through bills and then I decided to check out real estate in the general areas surrounding Keller. My greatest fear is that it is too populated and not enough open spaces that I will like it, but I quickly saw that there are plenty of areas around that are out in the open and has some land with some of the houses. I don't want to live so close to someone that I can open my door, spit and hit the neighbor's house. That is not for me, or my husband.
So a realtor contacted me through Face Book and supplied his website, and the list of cities that he covers. I did a search using his website and found a few places of interest. However, I used realtor.com and found lots more in some areas around Keller. We looked in Rhome, Azle, Haslet, Newark, Ponder, Aubrey(half between Keller and Denton), Boyd, and a few others. We found several things that really interested us.
So what is our next step? Well I am continuing to look for a job in that general area. I'm going to widen my search, and my interests on Monster.com, but I know all will be okay. I have been praying for God to give us direction, and I know He is talking to my heart. Am I afraid? Yes, but not of moving or starting over. My greatest fear is that God will call me to do something, and my husband is not going to be ready. However, even in that, I know that God will prepare us both for whatever He has in store for us.
Church was awesome yesterday. My husband is in the Christmas program and he had choir practice yesterday afternoon. While he was gone, the dogs and I listened to the sound track of Elf, and I made 68 dog treats, Honey and Oats. The dogs were very ready for them last night.
Have a God filled and blessed day!
Love, L
As we prepared to go to bed on Friday night, I looked at my husband and said, "I need you to be totally honest with me." He looked at me and I asked, "Do you want to move or not?" He said, "Yes that is okay, we can move up that direction." Not his exact words, but close. I felt much better as we went to bed.
Saturday as we sat at the computers, he was reading his newspapers, while I answered emails, and caught up the check book, went through bills and then I decided to check out real estate in the general areas surrounding Keller. My greatest fear is that it is too populated and not enough open spaces that I will like it, but I quickly saw that there are plenty of areas around that are out in the open and has some land with some of the houses. I don't want to live so close to someone that I can open my door, spit and hit the neighbor's house. That is not for me, or my husband.
So a realtor contacted me through Face Book and supplied his website, and the list of cities that he covers. I did a search using his website and found a few places of interest. However, I used realtor.com and found lots more in some areas around Keller. We looked in Rhome, Azle, Haslet, Newark, Ponder, Aubrey(half between Keller and Denton), Boyd, and a few others. We found several things that really interested us.
So what is our next step? Well I am continuing to look for a job in that general area. I'm going to widen my search, and my interests on Monster.com, but I know all will be okay. I have been praying for God to give us direction, and I know He is talking to my heart. Am I afraid? Yes, but not of moving or starting over. My greatest fear is that God will call me to do something, and my husband is not going to be ready. However, even in that, I know that God will prepare us both for whatever He has in store for us.
Church was awesome yesterday. My husband is in the Christmas program and he had choir practice yesterday afternoon. While he was gone, the dogs and I listened to the sound track of Elf, and I made 68 dog treats, Honey and Oats. The dogs were very ready for them last night.
Have a God filled and blessed day!
Love, L
Friday, November 26, 2010
Feels Like Winter!
Okay so on Wednesday I was wearing shorts and flip flops and walking around outside. Drove to the store with the windows down and the sun was heavenly. Yesterday I carried a coat to my Mom's and wore it home. Heat is on, and all the ceiling fans are off. Two of the three dogs are wearing their sweaters. The big dog needs a pony blanket, because they don't make dog sweaters for dogs that weigh 120pounds and stand six foot tall on their hind legs.
Anyway, I have mini muffins in the oven for the dogs all though they smell so good, i might eat one. ( It's oats and honey flavored) Okay get a grip! It is people food, not dog food. Okay, so we drew names yesterday for Christmas at my mom's. We did couples and i got my niece and her boyfriend. I'm not sure what we are going to do for them yet, but I have a couple of thoughts.
Every time I think about Christmas, or anything like that, I have heart palpitations... No it's just that I want to do so much and money is tight, and I don't have any place to put a Christmas tree where we live. I was really hoping that God would provide us with a new place to live big enough I could put up a tree and decorate, but maybe next year.
Thanksgiving was great yesterday! Ate too much! Just normal for a holiday. Looking forward to Christmas Eve with my family and Christmas Day with Norman's family. Of course if someone wants to send me on a cruise to the Virgin Islands I won't complain. Soaking up sun on the beach with temperatures in the 70's and 80's sounds so good today! But I would miss everyone.
Don't forget your dogs for Christmas this year! Go to http://dixiedogtreatsntraining.com The What's new Page has a link to purchase my dog treat recipe book. Your dogs will love you forever!.. It's not very expensive!!! Please share the link and page with your friends.
May you all be blessed abundantly in whatever you seek! Have a God Filled Day! Love, L
Anyway, I have mini muffins in the oven for the dogs all though they smell so good, i might eat one. ( It's oats and honey flavored) Okay get a grip! It is people food, not dog food. Okay, so we drew names yesterday for Christmas at my mom's. We did couples and i got my niece and her boyfriend. I'm not sure what we are going to do for them yet, but I have a couple of thoughts.
Every time I think about Christmas, or anything like that, I have heart palpitations... No it's just that I want to do so much and money is tight, and I don't have any place to put a Christmas tree where we live. I was really hoping that God would provide us with a new place to live big enough I could put up a tree and decorate, but maybe next year.
Thanksgiving was great yesterday! Ate too much! Just normal for a holiday. Looking forward to Christmas Eve with my family and Christmas Day with Norman's family. Of course if someone wants to send me on a cruise to the Virgin Islands I won't complain. Soaking up sun on the beach with temperatures in the 70's and 80's sounds so good today! But I would miss everyone.
Don't forget your dogs for Christmas this year! Go to http://dixiedogtreatsntraining.com The What's new Page has a link to purchase my dog treat recipe book. Your dogs will love you forever!.. It's not very expensive!!! Please share the link and page with your friends.
May you all be blessed abundantly in whatever you seek! Have a God Filled Day! Love, L
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Thanksgiving Eve (I know)
Okay, I haven't felt this way about the holidays in years I think.....
I worked over at the church today and put in 3.5 hours. The office is closed on Friday, and my husband went to do a small repair job, which if he doesn't finish today, he will on Friday. I just spent about twenty or twenty five minutes on the phone with one of my best friends, Jean. She gave me a tip for a job.... I think I will email the lady and see what is going on. It would be back in relocation, so I'm not sure. It would depend on the job. Anyway, I'm trying to decide whether to go ahead and boil potatoes and get everything ready for the potato salad tonight so that all i need to do is put it together in the morning or to wait. Maybe I'll get my husband to make his cake tonight and then I can do the potato salad in the morning. I want to get to my mom's by lunch time at the latest.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. To Family and Friends that read this, I'm wishing you all the best day possible! May God Bless each and everyone of you abundantly in all that you seek. Seek His face first in everything you do. He is always there. Love you all, L. Have A God Filled Day!
I worked over at the church today and put in 3.5 hours. The office is closed on Friday, and my husband went to do a small repair job, which if he doesn't finish today, he will on Friday. I just spent about twenty or twenty five minutes on the phone with one of my best friends, Jean. She gave me a tip for a job.... I think I will email the lady and see what is going on. It would be back in relocation, so I'm not sure. It would depend on the job. Anyway, I'm trying to decide whether to go ahead and boil potatoes and get everything ready for the potato salad tonight so that all i need to do is put it together in the morning or to wait. Maybe I'll get my husband to make his cake tonight and then I can do the potato salad in the morning. I want to get to my mom's by lunch time at the latest.
Anyway, I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving. To Family and Friends that read this, I'm wishing you all the best day possible! May God Bless each and everyone of you abundantly in all that you seek. Seek His face first in everything you do. He is always there. Love you all, L. Have A God Filled Day!
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Timeless Tuesday
Today has been one of the longest days I have experienced in a while. I miss the kids at school and this afternoon I walked over to see who was there. Only three there Emily, Jara and Laily. Laily's mom Tracy, and Ms. Melissa. I wish I hadn't resigned, but it was for the better. The school doesn't have to worry about paying 4 teachers when there really wasn't enough three year old students for two classes.
Changing the subject, Remember the song by Cyndi Lauper called Just another manic Monday!!!! That was yesterday. I know that this time of year is very slow for my husband's work, but I don't quite remember it being this slow last year. We are better off bill wise, because we have paid my car off, but when you look at everything in the long run, I still need to find work. I don't want to move... but it may come to that. We both need jobs that are steady at least for awhile.
Anyway, it is in God's hands right now. I've been job surfing all day practically, so much so I have a stress headache. On a different note, we are going to spend Thanksgiving with my family this year.... I can't wait to play games and laugh and have a good time. Almost everyone will be there except for my niece Misty, but she is being transferred to the half house from rehab. I am so proud of her! And my nephew John. They are finally turning their lives around.
I am thinking about maybe offering to babysit or watch a couple of kids after school to see if i get any takers. It wouldn't be much income but it would be some and with cleaning at the church it will help until I can find something full time. I'm not even sure what kind of job I want. I just want to be able to go to school and get my degree. Maybe I can find something at a childcare facility or something like that to help. Anyway, I guess that is where we are right now. If we move, I would definitely want to go the direction that my daughter and son in law are going. I'm not sure how that will effect my husband's work. We have to go where there is work. I am tired of worrying and not knowing what is going to happen. Yes i know about giving it to God, but let's face it, that is a whole lot easier said than done. I pray and talk to God all the time. He answers my prayers and I know i just have to have faith and trust in the Lord, and i do try to do that everyday, but Monday was my day for a nervous breakdown. And I had it.
My daughter is a great prayer warrior and we prayed together and all is turning out okay, not great but okay and it will get better. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and that you all are blessed greatly by God in all that you seek. Have a God Filled Day!
Changing the subject, Remember the song by Cyndi Lauper called Just another manic Monday!!!! That was yesterday. I know that this time of year is very slow for my husband's work, but I don't quite remember it being this slow last year. We are better off bill wise, because we have paid my car off, but when you look at everything in the long run, I still need to find work. I don't want to move... but it may come to that. We both need jobs that are steady at least for awhile.
Anyway, it is in God's hands right now. I've been job surfing all day practically, so much so I have a stress headache. On a different note, we are going to spend Thanksgiving with my family this year.... I can't wait to play games and laugh and have a good time. Almost everyone will be there except for my niece Misty, but she is being transferred to the half house from rehab. I am so proud of her! And my nephew John. They are finally turning their lives around.
I am thinking about maybe offering to babysit or watch a couple of kids after school to see if i get any takers. It wouldn't be much income but it would be some and with cleaning at the church it will help until I can find something full time. I'm not even sure what kind of job I want. I just want to be able to go to school and get my degree. Maybe I can find something at a childcare facility or something like that to help. Anyway, I guess that is where we are right now. If we move, I would definitely want to go the direction that my daughter and son in law are going. I'm not sure how that will effect my husband's work. We have to go where there is work. I am tired of worrying and not knowing what is going to happen. Yes i know about giving it to God, but let's face it, that is a whole lot easier said than done. I pray and talk to God all the time. He answers my prayers and I know i just have to have faith and trust in the Lord, and i do try to do that everyday, but Monday was my day for a nervous breakdown. And I had it.
My daughter is a great prayer warrior and we prayed together and all is turning out okay, not great but okay and it will get better. I hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving and that you all are blessed greatly by God in all that you seek. Have a God Filled Day!
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Priorities In Life
Okay after a long talk with God this morning, I've realized that I need to get my priorities straight. Playing games on Face book, playing solitaire, or doing things that are not productive should not be on that list. So after a lot of thinking and realizing that money for the next two weeks is going to be very, very tight, I've decided to re-organize things and get a plan together and in place. Of course, I need God to be at the top of that list, and He is.
So here are the things I'm trying to accomplish with God at the helm over the next six to seven months.
1. A closer walk with Jesus and He being first in my life.
2. An income from my freelance writing and my website to sustain us when Norman doesn't have any work.
3. To start school. I had some very unrealistic goals this last week concerning this, so if i don't get enrolled to start by January one, then I'm not going to freak out.
4. A place to live where, the electricity bill and utilities are not more than the rent. A place to live where we are not overrun by critters so to speak. A place to live where the floors don't give when you walk. A place to live that I can invite my family to spend the night. A place to live where if I decide to keep kids or provide childcare, I have room.
5. To plan and pay for our vow renewal ceremony, just the way we want it.
These are currently my priorities. I have other priorities but these take precedence currently. Number one will always be a priority no matter what else I have completed or accomplished. God, husband, work, family, and friends. Those are the way it is for now.
May you truly have a blessed and God Filled Day. love, L
So here are the things I'm trying to accomplish with God at the helm over the next six to seven months.
1. A closer walk with Jesus and He being first in my life.
2. An income from my freelance writing and my website to sustain us when Norman doesn't have any work.
3. To start school. I had some very unrealistic goals this last week concerning this, so if i don't get enrolled to start by January one, then I'm not going to freak out.
4. A place to live where, the electricity bill and utilities are not more than the rent. A place to live where we are not overrun by critters so to speak. A place to live where the floors don't give when you walk. A place to live that I can invite my family to spend the night. A place to live where if I decide to keep kids or provide childcare, I have room.
5. To plan and pay for our vow renewal ceremony, just the way we want it.
These are currently my priorities. I have other priorities but these take precedence currently. Number one will always be a priority no matter what else I have completed or accomplished. God, husband, work, family, and friends. Those are the way it is for now.
May you truly have a blessed and God Filled Day. love, L
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Amazed
Sometimes I look at my life and I'm amazed and what it turned out like.... I have a wonderful husband, a super daughter, wonderful step children, and a family both by blood and by marriage that I love. As we are growing up, we all have dreams of getting married, having a family, a house, and much, much more but as young girls and boys, you don't really understand what all that encompasses. You don't think about the in laws that you get when you get married, or the additional sisters and brothers or if you marry someone that was or has been married before, you get step-children, and in some cases, step-grandchildren.
Although my relationship with my step children is not anything like I had hoped, I am hoping that God will help us to heal the hurts and have a better relationship this year and the years to come. My husband and I would both like to be a part of their lives. I've been praying for healing in those relationships and maybe, hoping it will happen soon only God knows.
Sometimes, it is very hard stepping in to a family where children are grown and have lives of their own. For me, it was my first marriage and I guess I really expected more, and it didn't quite turn out that way, probably my fault but I am willing to fix the issues. Some times our imaginations take over and then when things don't happen quite like we think, we get a little disappointed and I think that applies to both my husband and myself.
I know that God will help us heal any hurts that we may have caused with family. I'm hoping that family will allow us to make those amends and have a relationship in the future. God has done wonderful things in our lives over the last year and half. I'm looking forward to what He has in store for us in the future, but right now I'm happy living one day at a time, doing His will, in His service, where ever that maybe doing whatever He wants us to do. Have a God Filled Day! May you be blessed Abundantly in all things you seek, when you seek His face, His guidance, His will and His wisdom. Love, L.
Although my relationship with my step children is not anything like I had hoped, I am hoping that God will help us to heal the hurts and have a better relationship this year and the years to come. My husband and I would both like to be a part of their lives. I've been praying for healing in those relationships and maybe, hoping it will happen soon only God knows.
Sometimes, it is very hard stepping in to a family where children are grown and have lives of their own. For me, it was my first marriage and I guess I really expected more, and it didn't quite turn out that way, probably my fault but I am willing to fix the issues. Some times our imaginations take over and then when things don't happen quite like we think, we get a little disappointed and I think that applies to both my husband and myself.
I know that God will help us heal any hurts that we may have caused with family. I'm hoping that family will allow us to make those amends and have a relationship in the future. God has done wonderful things in our lives over the last year and half. I'm looking forward to what He has in store for us in the future, but right now I'm happy living one day at a time, doing His will, in His service, where ever that maybe doing whatever He wants us to do. Have a God Filled Day! May you be blessed Abundantly in all things you seek, when you seek His face, His guidance, His will and His wisdom. Love, L.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
My First Day as a School Teacher
Okay so Tuesday, August 31st, was my first day as a preschool teacher and it was awesome! I had six little three year olds; one boy and 5 girls. They are all very precious and even though the day was kind of hectic, we did have fun and learn a few things. The letter of the week is A a, the number for the month is "1", the color of the month is "red" and the shape of the month is "Circle".
Nap time was from about 1:30/1:40 until 3:00 or whenever the parents make it by to pick up their little people. I love them all, already and I can't wait for tomorrow. They each have their own cubbie.
Nap time was from about 1:30/1:40 until 3:00 or whenever the parents make it by to pick up their little people. I love them all, already and I can't wait for tomorrow. They each have their own cubbie.
With there very own water bottle, nap mat, and their name is on there, too! They can bring their own blanket and pillow too!
We have part of a board on one wall of our room. On that board we have a poster with names and birthdays of the children, and all the teachers. We also have a section labeled our class and it has all our first names written.
There is also a poster with our numbers up to the number "Ten". Hopefully by the end of the school year they will be able to count to at least 10, but we are hoping that maybe they can even make it to 20.
In the mornings we have what we call our morning songs. First we say a prayer to start the day, and then we do all our pledges: Pledge of Allegiance, Texas Flag Pledge, Christian Flag Pledge, and the Pledge to the Holy Bible. We sing about the days of the week, the month and we do alphabet sounds. On our board we have the month, with all the numbers of the day for the month, and we have a poster that tells them what today is, yesterday was, and what tomorrow will be.
There is also a poster that talks about the season, and the weather for the day. We also have our shape, color and number for the month on this board. We do a bible verse for each letter we learn and we do the verse about the fruit of the Spirit. There is a poster for each characteristic. Here is the verse: But the fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, longsuffering, gentleness, goodness, faith, meekness, temperance. Galatians 5:22-23a.
One of the highlights of Tuesday was that we had colored noodles, pink and blue, and they got to cut them up and play with them. Thanks Miss Melissa!. That afternoon the kids asked if they could play with the worms again!
Someone told me today, that they think this is my calling. If it is,God will definitely make sure it all works out and I will pursue my teaching certificate.
May you all be blessed beyond your beliefs, by the one and true living God.
Love, L
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
Teacher and Everything Else
Okay so today was a Teacher's in service day and we were off premises, which is nice, because on the three days I don't teach, I still clean at the church. Anyway, we went over curriculum, lesson plans, centers, PE, Music, Science, Story Time/Safety Lesson, and Bible Study. I'm the only one not certified, but I don't have to be at the Day school. I am hoping that God will use this time to show me if teaching is something I need to pursue or not and if it is, I want to be certified.
I was so overwhelmed with things. We are at school from 7:30 to 3:30 on Tuesday and Thursdays. I'm excited, nervous, anxious, happy, scared... (I know it is 3 year olds...What do I have to be scared of???) Anyway, I will have eight little children that I get to teach how to write their names, count, learn all the pledges, the calendar, the alphabet... and the list goes on. My husband says this is my practice for being a grandma. He says I have so much love in my heart that I need to share it with all those little kids.
I feel kind of like a fish out of water, but I know it will be okay, because God is going to be there every step of the way. I love that I'm at a school where it's okay to talk about Jesus, God, The bible, and we even pray in the mornings, before snack and before lunch.
Thursday will be getting our rooms set up for the kids. Monday night is open house, and then the first day of school is August 31st. Whew Hoo!!!!!! Tomorrow I get some one on one training and help with my lesson plan. I'm having a difficult time getting the logistics but I know it will all come together.
I hope that as a Christian I will be able to impact some of these peoples lives, as a mother and grandmother I get to share my love with the children while teaching them to write and count. I can't wait!!!!
May you all be truly Blessed by God. Impact a small person's life if you get the chance. You may be the difference they need.
I was so overwhelmed with things. We are at school from 7:30 to 3:30 on Tuesday and Thursdays. I'm excited, nervous, anxious, happy, scared... (I know it is 3 year olds...What do I have to be scared of???) Anyway, I will have eight little children that I get to teach how to write their names, count, learn all the pledges, the calendar, the alphabet... and the list goes on. My husband says this is my practice for being a grandma. He says I have so much love in my heart that I need to share it with all those little kids.
I feel kind of like a fish out of water, but I know it will be okay, because God is going to be there every step of the way. I love that I'm at a school where it's okay to talk about Jesus, God, The bible, and we even pray in the mornings, before snack and before lunch.
Thursday will be getting our rooms set up for the kids. Monday night is open house, and then the first day of school is August 31st. Whew Hoo!!!!!! Tomorrow I get some one on one training and help with my lesson plan. I'm having a difficult time getting the logistics but I know it will all come together.
I hope that as a Christian I will be able to impact some of these peoples lives, as a mother and grandmother I get to share my love with the children while teaching them to write and count. I can't wait!!!!
May you all be truly Blessed by God. Impact a small person's life if you get the chance. You may be the difference they need.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Finally Friday!!!
It's finally Friday and it has been an awesome week! My mom came down on the 30th of July and stayed with my daughter until this morning. BY THE WAY MOM....HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
It has come to my attention that I haven't lost my temper but once this week.... That is a major accomplishment, and I haven't been angry but once this week... same day. I know that is because I've given my life to GOD.
GOD has answered two of my prayers this week, so if you doubt that GOD hears you, DON'T. However you have to be willing to listen and to do what HE asks you to do, when you give your life to GOD. I know this is a bunch of rambling, but my mind has been running 100mph today, even when I took a little nap, I dreamed in super fast speed. HAHA! Glad there wasn't any policemen in my dream... I might have a ticket!! LOL.
Recovery meeting was awesome last night and my husband, Norman (For those who don't know his name) stood in front of the group again and shared, and made a joke, which I was part of... it was quite funny! He told the group that anyone that needed to talk, could call the house and it didn't matter if it was 4 am. He said, "My wife will answer the phone," and there was a 1000 laughs (okay so I exaggerate a little). Then he said, "No really she always hears the phone and will answer and wake me up. It's true. I'm not a very deep sleeper.
What prayers did GOD answer for me this week? I will share one. Since I quit working in corporate America, I haven't had any friends. Oh I have email buddies, and people I talk to on Face book, but no one to call and say let's go to sonic, or want to go to the movies or anything like that. So I've been praying that someone would come along. Some one that was a christian, that shared the same beliefs, and that it would just seem inevitable that we were going to be friends. Well it happened. A young lady from church that I see almost every day asked me to become her prayer partner and we just hit it off! We've been talking and sharing for awhile. She is sooooo sweet!!!!! Anyway, she was the answer to my prayer. She is a great friend and I know we are going to be good friends for a long time.
So let's see oh yeah, I was cleaning the auditorium today. The baptistry has been filled going on three weeks now. On Thursday, I went over and threw some bleach in it to kill anything growing (Just kidding), but we do have a cricket problem right now. The little buggers are every where. So today after I dusted the auditorium I went up into the baptistry to dip out crickets. Well I got what I could reach by standing on the very top, no water. However, some of the little buggers were in the middle. So being a good Baptist, I took off my flip flips and walked down the first couple of steps. Water just above my ankles and I was able to get a couple more. However, the pump kicked on, and they started swirling out to the middle. Now I wear shorts and a T-shirt to clean in, but I really didn't want to go swimming in the Baptistry. So I took one more step down, water to my knees now and was able to get a couple more. However, then I guess I swirled the water to much because on the filter, a couple that were stuck fell off. And went to the bottom. As I stood there looking at the crickets, and the depth of the water, I realized that there was no way to get the rest without getting a little wet. So I pulled my shorts up and took the next step down with my left foot. The edge of my shorts still got wet. I leaned over and now the left half of my shirt was wet, but I got 'em!!! The little buggers did not get away. SO I climbed out and looked and then I notice, one had swam to the other side. I dried off, walk out of that side, went to the other side, unlocked the door, climbed the steps and he was floating towards the other side and was almost to the middle...... so back into the water I went... LEANED WAY OUT! Foot started to slide, but swiped him up in the net, and didn't get any wetter.... WHOA!!!! Actually... it wasn't too bad, and I came home afterwards, but it was necessary since we are Baptizing 4 people on Sunday!!!! I won't mind if I have to get a snorkel and wet suit and clean the baptistry for the rest of the year as long as God keeps leading new people to church and they keep accepting HIM as their Savior. Can I get an AMEN??? AAAAAAMMMMMEEEENNNN!
It has come to my attention that I haven't lost my temper but once this week.... That is a major accomplishment, and I haven't been angry but once this week... same day. I know that is because I've given my life to GOD.
GOD has answered two of my prayers this week, so if you doubt that GOD hears you, DON'T. However you have to be willing to listen and to do what HE asks you to do, when you give your life to GOD. I know this is a bunch of rambling, but my mind has been running 100mph today, even when I took a little nap, I dreamed in super fast speed. HAHA! Glad there wasn't any policemen in my dream... I might have a ticket!! LOL.
Recovery meeting was awesome last night and my husband, Norman (For those who don't know his name) stood in front of the group again and shared, and made a joke, which I was part of... it was quite funny! He told the group that anyone that needed to talk, could call the house and it didn't matter if it was 4 am. He said, "My wife will answer the phone," and there was a 1000 laughs (okay so I exaggerate a little). Then he said, "No really she always hears the phone and will answer and wake me up. It's true. I'm not a very deep sleeper.
What prayers did GOD answer for me this week? I will share one. Since I quit working in corporate America, I haven't had any friends. Oh I have email buddies, and people I talk to on Face book, but no one to call and say let's go to sonic, or want to go to the movies or anything like that. So I've been praying that someone would come along. Some one that was a christian, that shared the same beliefs, and that it would just seem inevitable that we were going to be friends. Well it happened. A young lady from church that I see almost every day asked me to become her prayer partner and we just hit it off! We've been talking and sharing for awhile. She is sooooo sweet!!!!! Anyway, she was the answer to my prayer. She is a great friend and I know we are going to be good friends for a long time.
So let's see oh yeah, I was cleaning the auditorium today. The baptistry has been filled going on three weeks now. On Thursday, I went over and threw some bleach in it to kill anything growing (Just kidding), but we do have a cricket problem right now. The little buggers are every where. So today after I dusted the auditorium I went up into the baptistry to dip out crickets. Well I got what I could reach by standing on the very top, no water. However, some of the little buggers were in the middle. So being a good Baptist, I took off my flip flips and walked down the first couple of steps. Water just above my ankles and I was able to get a couple more. However, the pump kicked on, and they started swirling out to the middle. Now I wear shorts and a T-shirt to clean in, but I really didn't want to go swimming in the Baptistry. So I took one more step down, water to my knees now and was able to get a couple more. However, then I guess I swirled the water to much because on the filter, a couple that were stuck fell off. And went to the bottom. As I stood there looking at the crickets, and the depth of the water, I realized that there was no way to get the rest without getting a little wet. So I pulled my shorts up and took the next step down with my left foot. The edge of my shorts still got wet. I leaned over and now the left half of my shirt was wet, but I got 'em!!! The little buggers did not get away. SO I climbed out and looked and then I notice, one had swam to the other side. I dried off, walk out of that side, went to the other side, unlocked the door, climbed the steps and he was floating towards the other side and was almost to the middle...... so back into the water I went... LEANED WAY OUT! Foot started to slide, but swiped him up in the net, and didn't get any wetter.... WHOA!!!! Actually... it wasn't too bad, and I came home afterwards, but it was necessary since we are Baptizing 4 people on Sunday!!!! I won't mind if I have to get a snorkel and wet suit and clean the baptistry for the rest of the year as long as God keeps leading new people to church and they keep accepting HIM as their Savior. Can I get an AMEN??? AAAAAAMMMMMEEEENNNN!
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Never Give Up
I was born in 1962 and as I grew up I never once thought I wouldn’t get married. As a child I had a weight problem, and it never really went away nor has it gone away today. I graduated from high school, and got a job. I went to a vocational school and took a job in Abilene, Texas. It was awesome! I turned 21 years old out there and although, I didn’t weigh any more than I do now, I felt like I was obese. I developed an eating disorder of sorts. It’s not something I’m proud of and I probably should have gotten professional help when I returned home to the Dallas area. I didn’t… and I’m not sure anyone even realized that it was an eating disorder. I mean everyone knew what anorexia was then, but it wasn’t something you talked about and I wasn’t anorexic. I starved myself, but I didn’t make myself throw up, not then anyway. I might have eaten one meal a day but most of the time I drank Coca Cola. I can truthfully say I’m a Coke addict, but it’s legal.
As time went by, I made friends and when we weren’t working, we were out drinking. It was also during this time, that I had female health issues and at one point was pretty much told I would not be able to have a child. Now they didn’t say I couldn’t get pregnant, just that I would not be able to have a child. That is another story in itself. Let’s just suffice it to say that I have a 24 year old daughter and God does work miracles.
Time to fast forward by the time I hit 35, I had been in several relationships, but nothing that felt right but something did happen that changed my life. I was obese by this time. My body fat was over 51%, I weighed in excess of 300 lbs and I couldn’t get in the floor and get up by myself. I made a decision that I have to live with for the rest of my life and that is okay, but it is in danger of being totally messed up. Again, that is another story or another chapter. In 2004, my insurance company agreed to pay for a gastric bypass. I found a hospital and we went through all the preliminary requirements and on October 23, 2003, I got a new stomach and a new beginning. As of today, I’ve lost 140 pounds because of this life changing surgery and I have no regrets. It gave me confidence, and a new attitude and I no longer thought of myself as overweight or ugly. Still I was unable to find the right person to spend the rest of my life with. I joined dating services, met people through friends, but nothing seemed to be right.
By now I’m over the 40 year mark I had pretty much given up hope of meeting the right person, so I thought I had to settle for something less than what I deserve. I met a man 25+ years my senior. We seemed to hit it off and being the trusting person I was, I became involved. I even went as far as to fly to Chino Valley, AZ and bring him and his mother back. Have you ever had that feeling in the pit of your stomach that you just need to turn around and walk away? I should have gotten right back on a plane and flown back to Texas. But what if this was my only chance to be married? Maybe I was just tired and what I was feeling was wrong? Always listen to your gut feeling or intuition or whatever you want to call it. He was a parasite. He did give me an engagement ring on Valentine’s Day in 2005. I promptly gave it back to him and told him to move a week before my birthday. I continued to lose weight from the surgery, but developed a binge purge kind of thing. The first sign of feeling too full and I would make myself go throw up. (This is not a good thing). Okay so let’s skip a little. I joined match.com but couldn’t break not seeing the parasite. I tried everything and then eventually, I told him, that it was killing me and that I couldn’t live sneaking around behind my family to see him. I knew it wasn’t right anyway, but I didn’t want to be alone. Okay so back to match.com. Up until July of 2005, when I was still seeing the parasite, I had gone out on a few dates, nothing serious. The only that happened with anyone serious during this time, was a wonderful man named Wayne, who I happened to be relocating for his company. We had wonderful conversations and had two majorly enjoyable dates. It was not meant to be though.
Okay In July of 2005, I went to Shreveport with a friend gambling one night, and on the way home, I actually had to let her drive. I couldn’t stay awake. It was the next few days that I got sick. I lost 12 pounds in two days, and almost passed out. I continually threw up. I had to go to the emergency room, but no one, not even, my doctor figured out what was wrong. A friend of mine finally suggested that it sounded like Mono. So I asked my doctor to test me and sure enough it was mono. Needless to say, the parasite gave it to me, but swears he didn’t have it. I had to contract it from somewhere. My doctor said that my case was severe enough that it had to be contracted. It took awhile and I actually wound up in the emergency room a second time from dehydration, before I began to bounce back. My membership with match.com was getting close to expiring and I had decided to cancel it at the end of the month. It was November now and winter was approaching and I would be alone during the holidays once again.
What happened next should never have happened. I kept asking God to send me someone. I actually asked him in April of 2001 for a husband and just so you know God does answer prayers but in His time, not ours. So let me get to the rest of the story. On November the 3rd of 2005, I received an email from match.com from a person who went by East Texas Hillbilly; however it came directly to my personal email with EarthLink. You see there is a built in security with email, that if I don’t know the person I have to approve them as an email address. They actually have to send a message to ask to email me. For some strange reason, he got the email from EarthLink and it actually displayed my email address and so he was able to bypass the security. It should never have happened, but I’m glad it did. We started exchanging emails and it was days of constant emails before I would even give him my phone number. He has this wonderful deep voice and all I could do was smile into the phone. I finally agreed to meet him in the afternoon on November 13th at a restaurant called Two Senoritas for coffee or tea or whatever. It’s funny, when I first saw him, I thought or he is not really my type, this will never work, but before our date was over, I was caught. He had already made me feel like the most important person in his world and he was fast becoming the most important person in mine. We seemed to know without a doubt that God had brought us together. The more we talked the more we discovered that we had been playing around in each other’s back yards for years and just didn’t know it.
It just seemed to be right when we were shopping in Wal-Mart one day to buy a set of wedding rings. He hadn’t proposed yet and although we talked about it jokingly, we hadn’t taken that step. We headed home and we stopped at his house to get a few things. This is December 19th 2005. We were all in the house, because my daughter was with us and she and I were playing around with the pool table. She headed towards the bathroom and suddenly, Norman was in front of me on both knees asking me to marry him. I started crying. Why? I mean we had just bought rings, but I hadn’t noticed that he had brought them in with him. My daughter witnessed the whole thing and of course I said yes…. Duh!!! It doesn’t take a sledge hammer for me to realize that God sent him to me.
We were married on March 31st of 2006 and it is hard to believe even today that I am married. God knew when the time was right and sent me the person I needed and sent me to the man who needed me. Yes we have had our problems, mostly because of work related issues and family, but I would never leave him. He was my gift from God and I thank Him every day for my husband.
So I guess my message to all those out there that might read this, never give up hope that God will send the right man to you. He will. It will just be on His time, now yours. Never lose hope or stop dreaming…God Bless.
As time went by, I made friends and when we weren’t working, we were out drinking. It was also during this time, that I had female health issues and at one point was pretty much told I would not be able to have a child. Now they didn’t say I couldn’t get pregnant, just that I would not be able to have a child. That is another story in itself. Let’s just suffice it to say that I have a 24 year old daughter and God does work miracles.
Time to fast forward by the time I hit 35, I had been in several relationships, but nothing that felt right but something did happen that changed my life. I was obese by this time. My body fat was over 51%, I weighed in excess of 300 lbs and I couldn’t get in the floor and get up by myself. I made a decision that I have to live with for the rest of my life and that is okay, but it is in danger of being totally messed up. Again, that is another story or another chapter. In 2004, my insurance company agreed to pay for a gastric bypass. I found a hospital and we went through all the preliminary requirements and on October 23, 2003, I got a new stomach and a new beginning. As of today, I’ve lost 140 pounds because of this life changing surgery and I have no regrets. It gave me confidence, and a new attitude and I no longer thought of myself as overweight or ugly. Still I was unable to find the right person to spend the rest of my life with. I joined dating services, met people through friends, but nothing seemed to be right.
By now I’m over the 40 year mark I had pretty much given up hope of meeting the right person, so I thought I had to settle for something less than what I deserve. I met a man 25+ years my senior. We seemed to hit it off and being the trusting person I was, I became involved. I even went as far as to fly to Chino Valley, AZ and bring him and his mother back. Have you ever had that feeling in the pit of your stomach that you just need to turn around and walk away? I should have gotten right back on a plane and flown back to Texas. But what if this was my only chance to be married? Maybe I was just tired and what I was feeling was wrong? Always listen to your gut feeling or intuition or whatever you want to call it. He was a parasite. He did give me an engagement ring on Valentine’s Day in 2005. I promptly gave it back to him and told him to move a week before my birthday. I continued to lose weight from the surgery, but developed a binge purge kind of thing. The first sign of feeling too full and I would make myself go throw up. (This is not a good thing). Okay so let’s skip a little. I joined match.com but couldn’t break not seeing the parasite. I tried everything and then eventually, I told him, that it was killing me and that I couldn’t live sneaking around behind my family to see him. I knew it wasn’t right anyway, but I didn’t want to be alone. Okay so back to match.com. Up until July of 2005, when I was still seeing the parasite, I had gone out on a few dates, nothing serious. The only that happened with anyone serious during this time, was a wonderful man named Wayne, who I happened to be relocating for his company. We had wonderful conversations and had two majorly enjoyable dates. It was not meant to be though.
Okay In July of 2005, I went to Shreveport with a friend gambling one night, and on the way home, I actually had to let her drive. I couldn’t stay awake. It was the next few days that I got sick. I lost 12 pounds in two days, and almost passed out. I continually threw up. I had to go to the emergency room, but no one, not even, my doctor figured out what was wrong. A friend of mine finally suggested that it sounded like Mono. So I asked my doctor to test me and sure enough it was mono. Needless to say, the parasite gave it to me, but swears he didn’t have it. I had to contract it from somewhere. My doctor said that my case was severe enough that it had to be contracted. It took awhile and I actually wound up in the emergency room a second time from dehydration, before I began to bounce back. My membership with match.com was getting close to expiring and I had decided to cancel it at the end of the month. It was November now and winter was approaching and I would be alone during the holidays once again.
What happened next should never have happened. I kept asking God to send me someone. I actually asked him in April of 2001 for a husband and just so you know God does answer prayers but in His time, not ours. So let me get to the rest of the story. On November the 3rd of 2005, I received an email from match.com from a person who went by East Texas Hillbilly; however it came directly to my personal email with EarthLink. You see there is a built in security with email, that if I don’t know the person I have to approve them as an email address. They actually have to send a message to ask to email me. For some strange reason, he got the email from EarthLink and it actually displayed my email address and so he was able to bypass the security. It should never have happened, but I’m glad it did. We started exchanging emails and it was days of constant emails before I would even give him my phone number. He has this wonderful deep voice and all I could do was smile into the phone. I finally agreed to meet him in the afternoon on November 13th at a restaurant called Two Senoritas for coffee or tea or whatever. It’s funny, when I first saw him, I thought or he is not really my type, this will never work, but before our date was over, I was caught. He had already made me feel like the most important person in his world and he was fast becoming the most important person in mine. We seemed to know without a doubt that God had brought us together. The more we talked the more we discovered that we had been playing around in each other’s back yards for years and just didn’t know it.
It just seemed to be right when we were shopping in Wal-Mart one day to buy a set of wedding rings. He hadn’t proposed yet and although we talked about it jokingly, we hadn’t taken that step. We headed home and we stopped at his house to get a few things. This is December 19th 2005. We were all in the house, because my daughter was with us and she and I were playing around with the pool table. She headed towards the bathroom and suddenly, Norman was in front of me on both knees asking me to marry him. I started crying. Why? I mean we had just bought rings, but I hadn’t noticed that he had brought them in with him. My daughter witnessed the whole thing and of course I said yes…. Duh!!! It doesn’t take a sledge hammer for me to realize that God sent him to me.
We were married on March 31st of 2006 and it is hard to believe even today that I am married. God knew when the time was right and sent me the person I needed and sent me to the man who needed me. Yes we have had our problems, mostly because of work related issues and family, but I would never leave him. He was my gift from God and I thank Him every day for my husband.
So I guess my message to all those out there that might read this, never give up hope that God will send the right man to you. He will. It will just be on His time, now yours. Never lose hope or stop dreaming…God Bless.
Friday, July 16, 2010
The End of the Week - July 16, 2010 - Friday
I am out of topics to post today, so I thought I would just write about today and how right life is for us. It is Friday, and I have been up since 5:00am. Why might you ask? Well I have quiet time with God in the mornings and it starts as soon as I have a cup of coffee in my hand, dogs have their morning cookies and I get the computer started.
I journal every day and that is part of my Road to Recovery. (See my blog: http://livingbythewordofgod.blogspot.com) for more information on that, however, when I pray, I write as if I'm sending a letter to God. It is easier for me to have a conversation with Him if I'm writing it. When I first started doing this, it was barely a page, now if I can get everything down in three or four pages, I'm lucky. Once I finish my journaling, I clean out and answer my emails. Then if I have time or if I'm not working at the church, I blog or catch up reading those I follow and then I usually visit my Facebook profile.
Today I worked over at the church and I seemed to have renewed strength today. It was one of the things I asked God for this morning, because I have not been sleeping and I'm exhausted. (Again go visit the other blog).
I had a great conversation with my cousin around lunch time and she is going to call back later I hope. My husband left somewhere around 8:30 this morning and was on his way to Arlington about 10:45am. Not sure when he will be home.
The rest of the day I have spent mowing, cleaning, laundry and was going to mop but alas, I need double A batteries for my wetjet.
Next Saturday the 24th is my husband's birthday. I'm not sure what I'm going to do for him yet. He will be 59. I thank God everyday that he gave me Norman. I'm glad I waited to get married and even though we have had some very rough spots and times, we love each other very much and he takes excellent care of me.
I have supper ready to go once I know he is on his way home, and we received our first two netflix movies today. We got a free trial and I think it will be good. We will be able to catch up on some movies.
If you get the chance there is a blog I want to recommend. The author is a friend and I did some freelance writing for her. I think I might be old enough to be her mother. She is the wife of a Southern Baptist Preacher and I love her blog. She is very honest and open and we share the same beliefs. She has been a great support over the last year and half. Take a minute and check out her blog: http://www.strivingfor31.com/, you will be blessed.
I hope you all have a God Filled weekend, and I hope you are doubly blessed by God this week.
Love,
L
I journal every day and that is part of my Road to Recovery. (See my blog: http://livingbythewordofgod.blogspot.com) for more information on that, however, when I pray, I write as if I'm sending a letter to God. It is easier for me to have a conversation with Him if I'm writing it. When I first started doing this, it was barely a page, now if I can get everything down in three or four pages, I'm lucky. Once I finish my journaling, I clean out and answer my emails. Then if I have time or if I'm not working at the church, I blog or catch up reading those I follow and then I usually visit my Facebook profile.
Today I worked over at the church and I seemed to have renewed strength today. It was one of the things I asked God for this morning, because I have not been sleeping and I'm exhausted. (Again go visit the other blog).
I had a great conversation with my cousin around lunch time and she is going to call back later I hope. My husband left somewhere around 8:30 this morning and was on his way to Arlington about 10:45am. Not sure when he will be home.
The rest of the day I have spent mowing, cleaning, laundry and was going to mop but alas, I need double A batteries for my wetjet.
Next Saturday the 24th is my husband's birthday. I'm not sure what I'm going to do for him yet. He will be 59. I thank God everyday that he gave me Norman. I'm glad I waited to get married and even though we have had some very rough spots and times, we love each other very much and he takes excellent care of me.
I have supper ready to go once I know he is on his way home, and we received our first two netflix movies today. We got a free trial and I think it will be good. We will be able to catch up on some movies.
If you get the chance there is a blog I want to recommend. The author is a friend and I did some freelance writing for her. I think I might be old enough to be her mother. She is the wife of a Southern Baptist Preacher and I love her blog. She is very honest and open and we share the same beliefs. She has been a great support over the last year and half. Take a minute and check out her blog: http://www.strivingfor31.com/, you will be blessed.
I hope you all have a God Filled weekend, and I hope you are doubly blessed by God this week.
Love,
L
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
A Picture is Worth
We have all heard the saying many times that a picture is worth a thousand words, but what about the tone in someone's words. The tongue it is said is as sharp as a two-edged sword, and I've been told on more than one occassion that I was mean, abrupt and bitter, and it doesn't matter if a person is smiling when they say those things, it still hurts.
Sarcasm is a great defensive mechanism and I used to use it all the time. The other day some one said, "Who only own the words you speak. You cannot control the way someone interprets them or takes them." This is only too true. In the long run, though, does it really matter. If you say something totally unintentionally and someone is offended, is it your responsibility to apologize to them? What if you don't know that you have offend them or hurt their feelings? All you know is that now they are cold and distant.
I posted a new profile picture of myself on Facebook. It is very difficult to smile and take your own picture. Someone said, "Great pic." "Next time smile." Funny thing is, I was smiling. It wasn't a broad grin it was just a slight uplift at the corners of my mouth. In the picture I look like I'm 100 years old or so it seems. Situations in life do take their toll on you and I've been through some difficult things in the last two or three years, and stress has definitely help to age me. I don't feel as old as I look in the photo, and the saying goes you are only as old as you feel right?
Here's a word of wisdom by the way, just because someone isn't smiling all the time, doesn't mean that they are angry or upset or unhappy. They might just be in deep thought or facing a difficult decision. So don't look at them and say smile. Just smile at them and acknowledge them. Chances are that they will smile back.
May you be filled with the loving spirit of God! He is awesome.... Thank you Lord Jesus for everything you do in my life.
Okay, here's the picture I posted on Facebook... Actually I share the one I didn't post and the one I posted.
Not posted....
One on the right, posted...
Sarcasm is a great defensive mechanism and I used to use it all the time. The other day some one said, "Who only own the words you speak. You cannot control the way someone interprets them or takes them." This is only too true. In the long run, though, does it really matter. If you say something totally unintentionally and someone is offended, is it your responsibility to apologize to them? What if you don't know that you have offend them or hurt their feelings? All you know is that now they are cold and distant.
I posted a new profile picture of myself on Facebook. It is very difficult to smile and take your own picture. Someone said, "Great pic." "Next time smile." Funny thing is, I was smiling. It wasn't a broad grin it was just a slight uplift at the corners of my mouth. In the picture I look like I'm 100 years old or so it seems. Situations in life do take their toll on you and I've been through some difficult things in the last two or three years, and stress has definitely help to age me. I don't feel as old as I look in the photo, and the saying goes you are only as old as you feel right?
Here's a word of wisdom by the way, just because someone isn't smiling all the time, doesn't mean that they are angry or upset or unhappy. They might just be in deep thought or facing a difficult decision. So don't look at them and say smile. Just smile at them and acknowledge them. Chances are that they will smile back.
May you be filled with the loving spirit of God! He is awesome.... Thank you Lord Jesus for everything you do in my life.
Okay, here's the picture I posted on Facebook... Actually I share the one I didn't post and the one I posted.
One on the right, posted...Saturday, May 22, 2010
Notice to my post on Addiction & Recovery
For those of you who read my blog last time, you know that I have started attend Recovery. It is a very Christian based program and also addresses the 12steps that you have heard about. Since it is so intertwined with God, I'm going to do my writing about it and my journey on my other blog, http://livingbythewordofgod.blogspot.com. Please come read and follow my journey as my life is transformed by the only one who can do it, GOD, Jesus Christ, My/Our Saviour.
May you all have a God Filled Day! Love, L
May you all have a God Filled Day! Love, L
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
Addiction and Recovery
When you speak of addiction, the first thing that usually comes to a person's mind is drugs and alcohol. Gambling and Sex would probably be the next two things that a person thinks about. However you can be an addict to many things in man's world. There are places where you can go for treatment for addictions of every kind. There are therapists of all kinds to help with all kinds of addiction. A lot of those treatment facilities offer help and step by step programs. But after you complete treatment, you are turned a loose back into society to just start your life again. A lot of treatment programs treat the addiction but not what caused you to turn to your addiction to start with. That where a good recovery program comes into play. I haven't done drugs in about 22 years. My last drink of alcohol was in December of 2009. I struggle every day with wanting a drink and recently even though it has been a long time, I've had to struggle with the desire for the rush from using. I use a highlighter in my bible readings and the refills come in this little plastic tube. Most people wouldn't think a thing about the tube. I emptied and thought that would work perfectly as a straw for snorting speed. Go figure. I would never go back to using drugs, but the desire is sometimes so strong I can't stand it. So you might ask, what caused me to turn to drugs and alcohol? I'm not really sure. Some times I think it is because I have struggled all my life with a weight issue and even today, after surgery, I still struggle because I think I should be a lot smaller. I'm a middle child, not the oldest and not the baby. I was sexually abuse by someone I trust when I was 14. I have always felt like I must compete and be the best no matter what. So hence I have obsessive compulsive disorder or OCD as it is called. These are just a few things that I think might have or could be a factor, but I've started attending a recovery group. It is at my church and they use God in their recovery, not man, but God. No one stares at you, you are accepted at face value. There are no expectations, you are free to come and go as you please. I'm excited to be a part of the group. I'm looking forward to the next meeting. There was a question in the last meeting about when do you forget the hurt? The answer was that only God forgives and forgets. Men can forgive, but you don't forget, you heal. The hurt is there to remind you not to turn back.
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