A Life Update

During the last two weeks, my life has been what seemed like a whirlwind, with lots of dust swirling around. Things that I thought I needed to do, didn't get done, but that was okay. I'm an obsessive compulsive, and some times, it gets the better of me. I receive daily devotionals from a pastor named Alaistar Beggs. I use to love to listen to him on the radio. He always has a great message. It was one of these devotionals that made me realize that I miss the in depth studies I had for the one semester at Criswell Bible College. So since I read that passage, devotional, I have been studying. My husband has a great knowledge of the bible as well as his brother, his mother, stepfather, my sister in laws, my mother, and my sisters. I've learned something in the last two weeks, that even though I looked at them as being sinless, they aren't, and this includes my mother, father, sisters, my child, inlaws, outlaws, and everyone else related. No one is, even if we are Christians and strive to be sinless, there are still times that we sin or are sinners. Jesus saved me, a sinner when I wasn't but a new teenager. However, no one took me by the hand and said, "Now this is how you need to live and you need to learn God's word. You need to bring others to Jesus." My husband and I have not attended church since about September of 2008. Why? Well life got in the way, and I no longer felt God's presence in that church. Was that what really was happening? Or was I just consumed by my life happenings, that I couldn't feel God? I'm not sure I really know the answer to that question. I do know that God has opened my eyes about a lot of things. I was raised a Baptist. My grandfather was a deacon in Hilltop Baptist Church. My Aunt and Uncle were members there, that is where I first walked the aisle and made my public confession of faith. That is where I was baptized. I feel like I have finally found answers to questions that have plagued me for a long time. I thank God for that.... I know God will continue to drive me the direction I need to go. My husband and I are starting to talk about going back to church. I'm not sure where that will be physically, I do know that we are both Baptist and I'm not looking to give up my denomination and neither is he. May God bless each and every person that reads this. I'm going to share my testimony on my other blog. http://livingbythewordofgod.blogspot.com/. Blessings, L

Realization

I've been thinking about this for awhile. I exchange my old cell phone and service carrier for one on my husband plan with a full keyboard. It seemed that I used text messaging more than the phone service. So at the beginning of July, I got a whole new set up. I sent the new number to my friends and family, expecting life to be the same. It has occurred to me recently, that I don't need a cell phone. I work with my husband now, so we don't even use ours to call each other and now that there is unlimited text messaging on his phone plan, we don't use that feature either. I receive no calls from my family or friends except my daughter and occasionally my son in law, but no one else. So what changed? Did I just tick everyone off? Did I say something else that I should have kept to myself? Or have all my friends gone away? I'm not sure the reason, but I feel very alone. I have my husband and my daughter, but it doesn't seem like there is anyone else in my life. I'm on facebook and I have little conversations there, but it is really just another addiction I have to play games. Anyone have any ideas? May God Bless you all. L

Strangeness of Life

Strangeness of Life


It is strange how you can get one phone call and it can change your life forever. The ripple effect is truly amazing. You change the way you think, they way you look at things and some times the way you act. The changes that happen can stem from fear, love, excitement or any number of other emotions or feelings.

You never forget those phone calls. You remember those for the rest of your life, no matter how long or how short. You remember the emotions that went through your body, the thoughts that went through your mind and everything in between.

You may walk around in a daze for what seems like days or weeks but are only minutes. It is truly amazing how your body and mind interact and no words need to be said or thought, it just happens. You move in slow motion but aren’t really. You almost have tunnel vision and no matter how fast you try to get to where you need to be, it seems like you drive for hours and you’ve only traveled a few minutes or a few miles.

Everyone has probably been there at some point in your life. Maybe you were waiting for a call to say a baby has been born or that your daughter has called and said “I’m in labor. Meet us at the hospital.” Or it could be a call from a family member saying that the loved one that has been sick or ill has finally made the last journey and is home with our Savior. We all wait for phone calls or messages at some point in our life. Unfortunately it is not always good news or something that you really want to hear.

I’ve recently experienced that heart wrenching moment for a second heart stopping time in my life and it seems that your life is never going to go back to what it was and maybe that is the way it is suppose to be. May be that is your wake up call from God, and He is telling you it is time to stop, listen and follow your faith in Him. Maybe it is God telling you that if things don’t change and you don’t start paying attention to Him, there is nothing He can do.

I’m sure that we will all go through trials and tribulations in our life, and each one either causes us to fold in on ourselves or they make us stronger and teach us to lean on God for His strength and to lean on each other when we need help. It is one of the most helpless feelings you can have though and you just want it to go away.

Sometimes when these moments in life happen, you think you are having a dream and you just want to wake up and know that is what it really was, just a dream or maybe a nightmare, but then reality sinks in and you know that the situation is not going away.

You have to learn to depend on God not only in those times but every day in our lives. We need to turn to him instead of our drug of choice or alcoholic beverage of choice to escape the emotion of the moment. Believe me there have been times recently that I would have rather snorted myself in to another world, or drank myself into unconsciousness, but that isn’t me any longer. I have to remember and so should we all, that we are not super humans. We have to have others to help us along the way and more than anything else in life, we have to have God. We have to learn to trust in what His word tells us and we have to believe by faith not by sight.

Its like jumping off the side of the pool for the first time into your parent’s arms, you have trust that He will catch you no matter what, where, why or when. God is our safety net and even though we will still have to face those times in our lives when everything gets flipped upside down, wrong side out, we have to trust that He will always be there to catch us and not let us drown. You can’t however just sit there and think that God will solve your problems, if you don’t ask for His help, how is He going to know what you need.

Prayer is one of the best things around and you don’t have to be a deacon or a minister or whatever to pray to God. God hears us even when we think He isn’t listening. You can talk to God just like you talk to your best friend. There is no right way or wrong way to pray. God knows when we speak from our hearts and that is how we should pray, from our hearts.

Take the time to look at the life around you, God is every where we look. How an atheist can look around and say there is no God, just blows my mind. Make a phone call to God. You don’t have to say much, just speak from your heart. God will hear you and He will answer you, just remember it is in His time, not ours.