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This notice is to let everyone know that I'm removing automatic emails from my blogging list.  If you want to continue to read it, you will need to sign up to follow the blog.  This is not to hurt anyone's feelings or because I'm mad at anyone.  I'm trying to be honest about my life, my recovery, and the way I feel about things and I think this is best so that no one is offended by what I might say.  (This maybe defeating the recovery program!)  Writing lets me get my emotions out and if I'm going to deal with my past and get past the hurts, and my addictions, then I need to write. 

May you be blessed by God abundantly... 

Realization

I've been thinking about this for awhile. I exchange my old cell phone and service carrier for one on my husband plan with a full keyboard. It seemed that I used text messaging more than the phone service. So at the beginning of July, I got a whole new set up. I sent the new number to my friends and family, expecting life to be the same. It has occurred to me recently, that I don't need a cell phone. I work with my husband now, so we don't even use ours to call each other and now that there is unlimited text messaging on his phone plan, we don't use that feature either. I receive no calls from my family or friends except my daughter and occasionally my son in law, but no one else. So what changed? Did I just tick everyone off? Did I say something else that I should have kept to myself? Or have all my friends gone away? I'm not sure the reason, but I feel very alone. I have my husband and my daughter, but it doesn't seem like there is anyone else in my life. I'm on facebook and I have little conversations there, but it is really just another addiction I have to play games. Anyone have any ideas? May God Bless you all. L