Crying for no reason

Friday, March 5th, was a very strange day. I cried for the majority of the day and couldn't really place a specific reason to the crying. When I wasn't crying, I was throwing up. Stress causes that since I've had a gastric bypass. The more stressed, the more I throw up. I took a shower because I thought I would feel better and it did help. Did it fix what was wrong? No. I prayed, I cried, I slept, and I tried to eat. Eating only caused pain from throwing up. I'm sure part of what was wrong is that I know we are at some kind of crossroads again. Work is good, but the weather prevents us from working more than two days in a row lately. I know we are going to be fine, because God is taking care of things, but it is only human to be afraid of what is going to happen. It is a battle that I can't win, but God can. I think it is funny, how the closer your relationship to God gets, the more emotional you become. Why is that? There are suppose to be no tears in heaven, I will be glad. I feel that I have cried enough for any human in the last 18 months. I know that all will be well. I'm giving the battle to God to fight. Now I just need to sit, listen and follow His instructions. May all have a blessed and God day. Love, L

Tears of????

I strongly dislike those days when I just cry... Those days when it seems that no matter how hard you try, nothing is working out. I have days when I just stop close my eyes and utter some very simple words, "Help me God". I know He is in control and I know we have unanswered prayers and answered prayers and I know that it is always in His time, not ours. I am very thankful for all that God has given to me and my husband and our family. I thank God daily for all those things, but is it wrong to ask and want for more from God? I'm tired of this world and look forward to the day when Christ will come to take us home.

Revelation 21:4And God will wipe away every tear from their eyes; there shall be no more death, nor sorrow, nor crying. There shall be no more pain, for the former things have passed away.”

The verse above gives me comfort to know that soon there will be no more pain and we will be simplified again. May God Bless each and everyone who reads this blog. With all my heart, L